I had no idea
... that I could feel so many emotions at once.
... that I could be so stupid.
... that someone could have so much power and not know it at all.
... that I would stop caring about you and not look back. HA! PS- When you fuck people over in similar ways make sure they don't talk to each other. You will suffer because of it.
... that sex could be so fucking amazing and passionate and tender and fierce and mutual and wonderful and...
... that you would be my rock. I love you for it.
... that we would get along so well. Maybe too well.
... that you would find happiness and lose your anger and regret and that I would be happy for you.
... that you would turn out to be such a wonderful friend and life-guru. We get on each other's nerves but we're really good for one another.
... that we might drift apart. It's so stupid and I can't tell you which is ridiculous because I thought I could tell you anything. Now I know that there are certain things I cannot say or do because it might mean losing you and that is one of the hardest things to even think about.
... that you have a problem. I don't know who to tell or what to do. You need to talk to someone-- let it all out. Bottling it up is not the way to go. It isn't weakness to ask for help.
... that I could forget you for long periods of time. You have no power over any aspect of my life. I don't dream about you anymore. I don't give a shit what you're doing or why you're doing it. You are just not that important.
... that I would miss you so much after such little time together. I don't know how I feel about you just that I miss you... or maybe it's the idea of you. I'm not sure. All I know is that the only restful sleep I've had in weeks, maybe months, was in your arms.
So much has happened over this break-- over the past few weeks. I don't know how to feel about any of it-- some good, some bad. All I know is that right now I'm tired and sick and yet so very... content.
... that I could be so stupid.
... that someone could have so much power and not know it at all.
... that I would stop caring about you and not look back. HA! PS- When you fuck people over in similar ways make sure they don't talk to each other. You will suffer because of it.
... that sex could be so fucking amazing and passionate and tender and fierce and mutual and wonderful and...
... that you would be my rock. I love you for it.
... that we would get along so well. Maybe too well.
... that you would find happiness and lose your anger and regret and that I would be happy for you.
... that you would turn out to be such a wonderful friend and life-guru. We get on each other's nerves but we're really good for one another.
... that we might drift apart. It's so stupid and I can't tell you which is ridiculous because I thought I could tell you anything. Now I know that there are certain things I cannot say or do because it might mean losing you and that is one of the hardest things to even think about.
... that you have a problem. I don't know who to tell or what to do. You need to talk to someone-- let it all out. Bottling it up is not the way to go. It isn't weakness to ask for help.
... that I could forget you for long periods of time. You have no power over any aspect of my life. I don't dream about you anymore. I don't give a shit what you're doing or why you're doing it. You are just not that important.
... that I would miss you so much after such little time together. I don't know how I feel about you just that I miss you... or maybe it's the idea of you. I'm not sure. All I know is that the only restful sleep I've had in weeks, maybe months, was in your arms.
So much has happened over this break-- over the past few weeks. I don't know how to feel about any of it-- some good, some bad. All I know is that right now I'm tired and sick and yet so very... content.