Thinking too much!!
I am happy right now, but I have so many things on my mind. I don't know how to deal with all the things going on right now. I am really glad that me and Paul have become friends and I hope I get to hang out with him outside of school soon I think I would have fun, I can't believe how wrong I was about him. I am so mad that I let my grades go because now I can't do anything and I have been threatened to be forced to leave the dance team if I don't bring up all my grades to at least a C by the end of the semester. I don't know how good of friends me and steph are anymore. I love her and I want to still be best friends but she has so many other people that I don't think she has much time for me. We haven't hung out since the last PD day in November. I am getting closer to Nancy and I love it I know I can go to her for anything, but for this break she has been gone the entire time and I won't have anyone to go to unless me and Steph get closer all of a sudden. I am really gunna have a hard time this break because I am gunna have my parents on my back the entire time, I am going to have things going on with my friends I know it, and I've got my brother Matt coming home who I don't get along with because we are so much alike I know it sounds weird but we kinda clash easily but then when we have hard times we understand eachother. It's a weird relationship. I still don't know what to do about Billy H. I still really like him and I know he likes me I just wish I knew how much he really likes me compared to how much I like him. I wish he was able to tell me either he likes me or he doesn't like me I wish there was nothing in between. I want to get over him because I feel liking him is going no where. I also don't want to give up on him because I do like him so much. I have other people I like but not as much as him. I don't know what to do if anyone has a suggestion please give it because I am not making up my mind very well. I am starting to like Andrew again and I don't want to because I already had something with him and it ended with both of us crying. We both got really attatch really fast and that wasn't good for either of us. I know we both still like eachother and we were good together but I just don't know if I should get into that again. Hopefully soon everything will be resolved soon and I will be under less stress. I want something to go well for me just once that would make me forget all of what has happened and will happen soon. Maybe in the near future but I don't know now so all I can do is think about what is now and what is to come. It's just all too much. Please comment on this I need help making up my mind and getting through a lot of this. **MUAH**