SUICIDE!
I am soo tired off all this work that the IBO has shoved on us...with all the projects, and essays, and assessments, plus all the stress on top of it for the final exams! I just want it all to be over and done with! I only have five more papers to write: History papers 1 and 2, French papers 1 and 2, and Music paper 1! Then I'm done on the 16th of may! I can't believe that this year has gone by soo fast! I have been a part of great memories with all my close friends and will miss them all! I hope that all of us can stay in touch over the years as we all move on and continue to grow!
On another note.....
MY BROTHER ISN'T COMMING HOME FOR MY GRADUATION!!!!! HE GOT A FREAKING JOB AND SINCE HE IS JUST STARTING AND HARDLY KNOWS HIS EMPLOYERS HE CAN'T ASK THEM TO LET HIM TAKE TIME OFF AND COME TO EUROPE FOR MY GRADUATION! I AM SOOOO FREAKING PISSED! I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT HE WOULD HAVE TOLD THEM RIGHT WHEN HE HAD THE INTERVIEW THAT HE WOULDN'T BE AVAILABLE DURING THAT TIME SO THAT HE COULD COME! HE KNOWS HOW IMPORTANT THIS ALL IS TO ME AND HE PROMISED ME THAT HE WOULD COME...AND THEN...I FIND OUT THAT NONE OF MY FAMILY FROM CANADA CAN EVEN COME...MY GRANDMA REFUSES TO GO ON A PLANE...MY AUNTS AND UNCLES THINK ITS TOO MUCH MONEY...AND MY COUSINS ARE ALL WORKING OR CAN'T AFFORD IT...SO IT WILL JUST BE MY PARENTS! ALTHOUGH I AM GLAD THAT THEY ARE COMMING(I MEAN COME ON...THEY ARE MY PARENTS)...BUT THEN...I FEEL SO UNLOVED AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR A FAMILY PROBLEM IN CANADA THAT ONE OF MY AUNTS AND UNCLES WOULD HAVE MADE IT TO MY BROTHER'S GRADUATION! I AM JUST SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME...DOES GOD HATE ME! AM I NOT WORTH CELEBRATING...I MEAN I KNOW THAT MY FRIENDS WILL BE THERE FOR ME AND SO WILL MY PARENTS...BUT MY BROTHER...AND THEN THE REST OF THE FAMILY CAN'T MAKE THE EFFORT....I MEAN I MADE THE EFFORT TO BE ABLE TO GO TO FLORIDA TO SEE TATI LAST SUMMER...BUT HAD TO PAY SOME OF THE FEE TO GET BACK...DAM!!! I MADE AN EFFORT FOR SOMEONE WHO I LOVE AND HOLD DEAR TO MY HEART!!!
LIVE SUCKS assssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On a happier note...my mom is randomly laughing her brains out downstairs for some reason!lol...
I have to keep a good state of mind for the exams!...I MUST NOT CRY...I MUST NOT CRY!!!!
KILL ME NOW!!!!!!!
On another note.....
MY BROTHER ISN'T COMMING HOME FOR MY GRADUATION!!!!! HE GOT A FREAKING JOB AND SINCE HE IS JUST STARTING AND HARDLY KNOWS HIS EMPLOYERS HE CAN'T ASK THEM TO LET HIM TAKE TIME OFF AND COME TO EUROPE FOR MY GRADUATION! I AM SOOOO FREAKING PISSED! I WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT HE WOULD HAVE TOLD THEM RIGHT WHEN HE HAD THE INTERVIEW THAT HE WOULDN'T BE AVAILABLE DURING THAT TIME SO THAT HE COULD COME! HE KNOWS HOW IMPORTANT THIS ALL IS TO ME AND HE PROMISED ME THAT HE WOULD COME...AND THEN...I FIND OUT THAT NONE OF MY FAMILY FROM CANADA CAN EVEN COME...MY GRANDMA REFUSES TO GO ON A PLANE...MY AUNTS AND UNCLES THINK ITS TOO MUCH MONEY...AND MY COUSINS ARE ALL WORKING OR CAN'T AFFORD IT...SO IT WILL JUST BE MY PARENTS! ALTHOUGH I AM GLAD THAT THEY ARE COMMING(I MEAN COME ON...THEY ARE MY PARENTS)...BUT THEN...I FEEL SO UNLOVED AND I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT IF IT HADN'T BEEN FOR A FAMILY PROBLEM IN CANADA THAT ONE OF MY AUNTS AND UNCLES WOULD HAVE MADE IT TO MY BROTHER'S GRADUATION! I AM JUST SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME...DOES GOD HATE ME! AM I NOT WORTH CELEBRATING...I MEAN I KNOW THAT MY FRIENDS WILL BE THERE FOR ME AND SO WILL MY PARENTS...BUT MY BROTHER...AND THEN THE REST OF THE FAMILY CAN'T MAKE THE EFFORT....I MEAN I MADE THE EFFORT TO BE ABLE TO GO TO FLORIDA TO SEE TATI LAST SUMMER...BUT HAD TO PAY SOME OF THE FEE TO GET BACK...DAM!!! I MADE AN EFFORT FOR SOMEONE WHO I LOVE AND HOLD DEAR TO MY HEART!!!
LIVE SUCKS assssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On a happier note...my mom is randomly laughing her brains out downstairs for some reason!lol...
I have to keep a good state of mind for the exams!...I MUST NOT CRY...I MUST NOT CRY!!!!
KILL ME NOW!!!!!!!