There's a killer on the road, his brain is squirming like a toad
Patrollin' with Angel was somethin' of a breath of fresh air. Well, with a strong odor of demon slime and dumpster, but definitely a good change gettin' out of the crypt. I've told Buffy I'm ready to go back to patrollin', maybe help with the girls, trainin' 'em. They can fight a vampire without danger of gettin' drained, that sort of thing.
Seemed to me she looked a little skeptical. I admit, still havin' bloody awful dreams when I sleep. They come one after the other, all the people I killed. Some just for the sheer fun, not even to feed. So, so many of them over the centuries, wonder if I have to dream of all of them before the dreams will stop? Today I dreamt of Mother again, the way she changed when I turned her. Woke up shakin'. So I understand if she thinks I'm not quite stable enough to help. But those girls need help, or they're goin' to die.
But I'm able to ignore the voices most of the time when I'm awake. I've gone out the last couple of nights. Buffy insisted on comin' along, but I think she realized I was alright when I'm fightin' and let me go on alone. She's got enough on her hands without havin' to babysit me, it's better this way.
Did a little demon killin' and noticed the other vampires aren't feeling quite as remorseful anymore. They're starvin', some of them, and that's bad news. Make's a vamp desperate enough to do crazy things. And what with the voices, they're already out of their minds. I still can't quite bring myself to dust 'em unless they're actually attackin' someone. There but for the grace of God go I. Heh, right, like he's lookin' on me with anythin' approachin' grace.
*Growls and attacks a demon.*
Seemed to me she looked a little skeptical. I admit, still havin' bloody awful dreams when I sleep. They come one after the other, all the people I killed. Some just for the sheer fun, not even to feed. So, so many of them over the centuries, wonder if I have to dream of all of them before the dreams will stop? Today I dreamt of Mother again, the way she changed when I turned her. Woke up shakin'. So I understand if she thinks I'm not quite stable enough to help. But those girls need help, or they're goin' to die.
But I'm able to ignore the voices most of the time when I'm awake. I've gone out the last couple of nights. Buffy insisted on comin' along, but I think she realized I was alright when I'm fightin' and let me go on alone. She's got enough on her hands without havin' to babysit me, it's better this way.
Did a little demon killin' and noticed the other vampires aren't feeling quite as remorseful anymore. They're starvin', some of them, and that's bad news. Make's a vamp desperate enough to do crazy things. And what with the voices, they're already out of their minds. I still can't quite bring myself to dust 'em unless they're actually attackin' someone. There but for the grace of God go I. Heh, right, like he's lookin' on me with anythin' approachin' grace.
*Growls and attacks a demon.*