BLUES Everywhere!!!!
Okay, yeah so I’m not happy? Big deal!!! Before someone comments saying its so cliché or boring whatever, actually just realized I don’t fucking care... coz no one really bothers to even read. What the fuck ever.
I’m so frantic for something; I don’t know what it is... I feel as if I’m missing something I feel so fucking shallow. I feel like the cold in getting in my brain. PSSSSSSST!!!!!!! I need someone, someone to actually understand the pain I go through.
I need a way to get away from it all; all the unneeded shit that I have to deal with and the crap I get for it. I need to get away, BREAK!!!!!! Agonizing about it... doesn’t help. I need to get away soon...????? HELL!!!!! I fucking need to forget about it.
DIPDAP!!!!
I read this somewhere and it kept me thinking for a long time last night. -- “It could be that the purpose of your life could be only to serve as a warning to others” - DAMN!!! It’s intense and so fucking powerful... It’s almost sad that you read things like these and how true it can be… You could like feel so lonely even with people around you… It is so amazing that in an office of 200+ busy, noisy people there can be so much isolation, desolation, and emptiness ---- each of us are like working together but are cut off from the one another by the walls of our cubicles and the fucking our headphones---
I just feel like a zero... constantly beating myself up is getting me nowhere. But I don't feel anything unless I do.
Is this the way it is suppose to be?
I don't think so... And I know that it is not. Love and happiness is a two-way street. But maybe maturity is the median. That almost rhymed... XD;
However... my point here is that… It’s never a question as to whether life will go on or not, but rather, will life take the path you somewhat want it to take---I've had a lot of near misses in my life… that’s what I think... PHEW!!!!!
AND SCENE!!!!!!!
Seperate me from the rest of the world,
And watch me wither upon the vine.
As I dry up,
Then crumble up.
And get caught up in the invisible winds of life,
That silently blow me away.
- BUGGCHASER