You'll be the one to call me out. I have found that its the only way
Okay this entry is completly 100 percent honestly. I am not going to put up a front or anything. So you don't have to read this.
SOmetimes I just wonder how my life would be different if people were completly honest in their relationships- with friends, with God, and with themselves. People try to put up this front and hide what they really are inside for fear of rejection. Like when you ask someone how they are doing and they say, "I'm good, or I'm fine." When in all reality they arent just good, or fine. When is the body of Christ gonna stop puttin up a front, and pertending like everything is all hunky dorey? When are we gonna get real? It just drives me CRAZY! When we are truly honest God uses that. To me being honest is completly laying down your pride, your fear of what people think and making yourself vulerable. The most influential people in my life have been the ones who have made themselves vulnerable for my sake. Not vulnerable as in i am weak in this area so step all over me, but vulnerable as in this is who I am, its not very pretty, but this is what I am with Christ. anyway thats just a thought.So this is me being completly honest with whats going on right now.
I have been learning a really hard lesson now- wait. Waiting on God. Last wed. the man was talking about how he can deal with God saying yes to his prayers, he can deal with God saying no to his prayers- but the hardest one for him to deal with is God saying wait. Thats so true in my life. I want things now, and when i feel like I am doing all the things i should be doing but I somehow seem to buy into the lie that God is jipping me out of His best. That He is holding back good things from me.I seriously have been contemplating That i need to get the best for myself because God may not give it to me. Satan has been bombarding me with lies telling me that God isn't faithful, and He won't come through and I am stupid to have waited, and that God has forgotten me. I mean how stupid am I? Am i really one to argue with the Creator of the universe about what is best for me? Who am I to argue with the one who knows everything? He never gives me more than I can handle. And He doesn't want to jip me out of anything good, His timing is just so much more perfect than mine, and He wants to develop my character. I am so short term oriented. This is an excert from the book i have been reading, "Believe that God will take care of you regardless of your circumstances. Don;t put your own devices to work. You can only see the outward man from today's perspective. God sees mans hearts from the perspective of eternity. With His perspective, He can see much better than what you need. Trust Him and let Him show His dependable love for you"
"ONe of life's most beautiful and costly objects is born out of pain and irritation- the pearl. A tiny piece of sand slips into an oysters shell, and begins to rub agianst the soft tissue, causing irritation. In responce to the irritatin the oyster produces a hard substance. This substance eventually develops into one of the world's most beautiful jewels- pearl. In fact the greater the irritation the more valuable the pearl.Don't view trials as irritating grains of sand to be discarded as quickly as possible. Realize that God has them there to create something beautiful in you." I just love that part of the book.....
i have been reading lady in waiting.EVERY GIRL READING THIS NEEDS TO GO BUY AND READ THAT BOOK. Its talking about waiting on God's perfect timing in relationships, but not only that area it applies to every single other aspect of my life.(in waiting on God's timing for everything else) That book is so incredable, well the book itself isn't but how God has used it in my life has been awsome.
God can and will give you His best if you wait for it.
I've learned that waiting isnt an assignment to cause suffering but to prevent it. I experience SO Much needless pain by trying to run ahead of God's formuala.
This entry sounds really depressing. I promise you all I am not depressed, how could i be with the greatest love of all? This entry may sound cheesy but i really don't care. I am being completly honest with my shortcomings admitting my mistakes. To be honest I am sortove scared about yalls reaction to this entry, but I am way more scared of disobeying what God has told me to do.
All i want to do is to grow closer to Christ, to let Him do His work in me- for my own selfishness and stupidity not to get in the way of His plan. I wanna cultivate confidence- not people confidence or worldy confidence but God confidence.I want to wait on His perfect timing. And I want to love people- not a fake sort of love but a real i am going to treat you how I would like to be treated love. A love not selfcenterd. A love not based on what I can get out of it. A love that is truly happy for my friends when they suceed. I want to love people that are hard for me to love. A love for people that pours out of my love for Christ. I wanna see people through God's eyes. Thats what I have been praying for.
All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.
Proverbs 16:2
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever
Heb. 13:8
Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Psalm 62:5
God, the one and only - I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I hope for comes from him, so why not?
This next little part is Phil. 3 (amaazing chapter)
And that's about it, friends. Be glad in God! 2 Steer clear of the barking dogs, those religious busybodies, all bark and no bite. All they're interested in is appearances - knife-happy circumcisers, I call them. 3 The real believers are the ones the Spirit of God leads to work away at this ministry, filling the air with Christ's praise as we do it. We couldn't carry this off by our own efforts, and we know it - 4 even though we can list what many might think are impressive credentials. 7 The very credentials these people are waving around as something special, I'm tearing up and throwing out with the trash - along with everything else I used to take credit for. And why? Because of Christ. 8 Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant - dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him.
I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ - God's righteousness. 10 I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all the way with him to death itself. 11 If there was any way to get in on the resurrection from the dead, I wanted to do it. 12
I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. 13 Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward - to Jesus. 14 I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back. 15
So let's keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision - you'll see it yet! 16 Now that we're on the right track, let's stay on it. 17 Stick with me, friends. Keep track of those you see running this same course, headed for this same goal. 18 There are many out there taking other paths, choosing other goals, and trying to get you to go along with them. I've warned you of them many times; sadly, I'm having to do it again. All they want is easy street. They hate Christ's Cross. 19 But easy street is a dead-end street. Those who live there make their bellies their gods; belches are their praise; all they can think of is their appetites. 20 But there's far more to life for us. We're citizens of high heaven! We're waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, 21 who will transform our earthy bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He'll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him.
i love this song
I'm so very ordinary
Nothing special on my own
I have never walked on water
I have never calmed a storm
Sometimes I'm hiding away
from the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark
But when I call on Jesus
*ALL* things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven
and earth to come rescue me when I call
Weary brother
Broken daughter
Widowed, widowed lover
You're not alone
If you're tired and
scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on
But when I call on Jesus
*ALL* things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven
and earth to come rescue me when I call
and this one:
Take, me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking
Welcome to this heart of mine
I've buried under prideful vines
Grown to hide the mess I've made
Inside of me
Come decorate, Lord
Open up the creaking door
And walk upon the dusty floor
Scrape away the guilty stains
Until no sin or shame remain
Spread Your love upon the walls
And occupy the empty halls
Until the man I am has faded
No more doors are barricaded
Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own
Make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own
Welcome home
Take a seat, pull up a chair
Forgive me for the disrepair
And the souvenirs from floor to ceiling
Gathered on my search for meaning
Every closet's filled with clutter
Messes yet to be discovered
I'm overwhelmed, I understand
I can't make this place all that You can
I took the space that You placed in me
Redecorated in shades of greed
And I made sure every door stayed locked
Every window blocked, and still You knocked
Take me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking
SOmetimes I just wonder how my life would be different if people were completly honest in their relationships- with friends, with God, and with themselves. People try to put up this front and hide what they really are inside for fear of rejection. Like when you ask someone how they are doing and they say, "I'm good, or I'm fine." When in all reality they arent just good, or fine. When is the body of Christ gonna stop puttin up a front, and pertending like everything is all hunky dorey? When are we gonna get real? It just drives me CRAZY! When we are truly honest God uses that. To me being honest is completly laying down your pride, your fear of what people think and making yourself vulerable. The most influential people in my life have been the ones who have made themselves vulnerable for my sake. Not vulnerable as in i am weak in this area so step all over me, but vulnerable as in this is who I am, its not very pretty, but this is what I am with Christ. anyway thats just a thought.So this is me being completly honest with whats going on right now.
I have been learning a really hard lesson now- wait. Waiting on God. Last wed. the man was talking about how he can deal with God saying yes to his prayers, he can deal with God saying no to his prayers- but the hardest one for him to deal with is God saying wait. Thats so true in my life. I want things now, and when i feel like I am doing all the things i should be doing but I somehow seem to buy into the lie that God is jipping me out of His best. That He is holding back good things from me.I seriously have been contemplating That i need to get the best for myself because God may not give it to me. Satan has been bombarding me with lies telling me that God isn't faithful, and He won't come through and I am stupid to have waited, and that God has forgotten me. I mean how stupid am I? Am i really one to argue with the Creator of the universe about what is best for me? Who am I to argue with the one who knows everything? He never gives me more than I can handle. And He doesn't want to jip me out of anything good, His timing is just so much more perfect than mine, and He wants to develop my character. I am so short term oriented. This is an excert from the book i have been reading, "Believe that God will take care of you regardless of your circumstances. Don;t put your own devices to work. You can only see the outward man from today's perspective. God sees mans hearts from the perspective of eternity. With His perspective, He can see much better than what you need. Trust Him and let Him show His dependable love for you"
"ONe of life's most beautiful and costly objects is born out of pain and irritation- the pearl. A tiny piece of sand slips into an oysters shell, and begins to rub agianst the soft tissue, causing irritation. In responce to the irritatin the oyster produces a hard substance. This substance eventually develops into one of the world's most beautiful jewels- pearl. In fact the greater the irritation the more valuable the pearl.Don't view trials as irritating grains of sand to be discarded as quickly as possible. Realize that God has them there to create something beautiful in you." I just love that part of the book.....
i have been reading lady in waiting.EVERY GIRL READING THIS NEEDS TO GO BUY AND READ THAT BOOK. Its talking about waiting on God's perfect timing in relationships, but not only that area it applies to every single other aspect of my life.(in waiting on God's timing for everything else) That book is so incredable, well the book itself isn't but how God has used it in my life has been awsome.
God can and will give you His best if you wait for it.
I've learned that waiting isnt an assignment to cause suffering but to prevent it. I experience SO Much needless pain by trying to run ahead of God's formuala.
This entry sounds really depressing. I promise you all I am not depressed, how could i be with the greatest love of all? This entry may sound cheesy but i really don't care. I am being completly honest with my shortcomings admitting my mistakes. To be honest I am sortove scared about yalls reaction to this entry, but I am way more scared of disobeying what God has told me to do.
All i want to do is to grow closer to Christ, to let Him do His work in me- for my own selfishness and stupidity not to get in the way of His plan. I wanna cultivate confidence- not people confidence or worldy confidence but God confidence.I want to wait on His perfect timing. And I want to love people- not a fake sort of love but a real i am going to treat you how I would like to be treated love. A love not selfcenterd. A love not based on what I can get out of it. A love that is truly happy for my friends when they suceed. I want to love people that are hard for me to love. A love for people that pours out of my love for Christ. I wanna see people through God's eyes. Thats what I have been praying for.
All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.
Proverbs 16:2
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever
Heb. 13:8
Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Psalm 62:5
God, the one and only - I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I hope for comes from him, so why not?
This next little part is Phil. 3 (amaazing chapter)
And that's about it, friends. Be glad in God! 2 Steer clear of the barking dogs, those religious busybodies, all bark and no bite. All they're interested in is appearances - knife-happy circumcisers, I call them. 3 The real believers are the ones the Spirit of God leads to work away at this ministry, filling the air with Christ's praise as we do it. We couldn't carry this off by our own efforts, and we know it - 4 even though we can list what many might think are impressive credentials. 7 The very credentials these people are waving around as something special, I'm tearing up and throwing out with the trash - along with everything else I used to take credit for. And why? Because of Christ. 8 Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant - dog dung. I've dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him.
I didn't want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ - God's righteousness. 10 I gave up all that inferior stuff so I could know Christ personally, experience his resurrection power, be a partner in his suffering, and go all the way with him to death itself. 11 If there was any way to get in on the resurrection from the dead, I wanted to do it. 12
I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. 13 Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward - to Jesus. 14 I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back. 15
So let's keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision - you'll see it yet! 16 Now that we're on the right track, let's stay on it. 17 Stick with me, friends. Keep track of those you see running this same course, headed for this same goal. 18 There are many out there taking other paths, choosing other goals, and trying to get you to go along with them. I've warned you of them many times; sadly, I'm having to do it again. All they want is easy street. They hate Christ's Cross. 19 But easy street is a dead-end street. Those who live there make their bellies their gods; belches are their praise; all they can think of is their appetites. 20 But there's far more to life for us. We're citizens of high heaven! We're waiting the arrival of the Savior, the Master, Jesus Christ, 21 who will transform our earthy bodies into glorious bodies like his own. He'll make us beautiful and whole with the same powerful skill by which he is putting everything as it should be, under and around him.
i love this song
I'm so very ordinary
Nothing special on my own
I have never walked on water
I have never calmed a storm
Sometimes I'm hiding away
from the madness around me
Like a child who's afraid of the dark
But when I call on Jesus
*ALL* things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven
and earth to come rescue me when I call
Weary brother
Broken daughter
Widowed, widowed lover
You're not alone
If you're tired and
scared of the madness around you
If you can't find the strength to carry on
But when I call on Jesus
*ALL* things are possible
I can mount on wings like eagles and soar
When I call on Jesus
Mountains are gonna fall
'Cause He'll move heaven
and earth to come rescue me when I call
and this one:
Take, me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking
Welcome to this heart of mine
I've buried under prideful vines
Grown to hide the mess I've made
Inside of me
Come decorate, Lord
Open up the creaking door
And walk upon the dusty floor
Scrape away the guilty stains
Until no sin or shame remain
Spread Your love upon the walls
And occupy the empty halls
Until the man I am has faded
No more doors are barricaded
Come inside this heart of mine
It's not my own
Make it home
Come and take this heart and make it
All Your own
Welcome home
Take a seat, pull up a chair
Forgive me for the disrepair
And the souvenirs from floor to ceiling
Gathered on my search for meaning
Every closet's filled with clutter
Messes yet to be discovered
I'm overwhelmed, I understand
I can't make this place all that You can
I took the space that You placed in me
Redecorated in shades of greed
And I made sure every door stayed locked
Every window blocked, and still You knocked
Take me, make me
All You want me to be
That's all I'm asking, all I'm asking