Thank you
I feel so blessed right now. Honestly. There are some truely amazing people in my life. Jill. You are amazing. Never have I ever felt so connected with a person before. I feel like we are on the same page, in the same place, walking next to each other, yet doing things differently. If I didn't have you with me here I don't know where I would be. Thank you so much for everything. You truely are a gift from God. Not to mention Miriam and Lauren. Lauren. Honestly. I don't think I have ever met someone and bonded so quickly with them. You have no idea how glad I am that we met you here. You are an amazing person, and will forever make me laugh. Miriam, my goodness Miriam, you are so great. I'm so glad that I now live one floor below you. I love having you so close and I am enjoying meeting all your wonderful 18th floor girls. Nyssa...oh how you make me laugh. I am so glad that distance brought us closer...I'm so glad that we found each other again. And everyone. Just everyone You guys are so amazing, don't ever forget that.
And I am so thankful that I was reminded today (well yesterday actually) How Lucky and blessed I am to have such an AMAZING family. My mom, is the greatest person in the world. I know all of you reading this know her, and I know you all agree when I say she is a gift from god. I love her with all my being. There is no one who is more loving, forgiving, understanding. She is my best friend, and I can tell her anything. You can't lie to that woman. But most of all why would you want to? She is so great. I know I am faced with things that make me angry, and bitter, and upset, and hateful. But with her by my side, she makes me realize that life is full of bad people, people who are hateful, and angry, and completely crazy. But the only way we can deal with it, is by loving them. That is what the bible teaches us after all isn't? To love and accept everyone, no judging, no bias. Nothing. I know I'm an angry, and hateful person right now, especially towards certian people. And I know that I should not own things that have been said about me, said towards me, by people who don't know me at all, who don't want to know me, who don't care about me in any way shape or form. But I can't help it. It is so painful to know that these people. These "Godly" people could be so completely...uncaring, blind, and just plain stupid. It hurts so bad to know that people who should know better, should be adults, would go about and act this way, towards a 19 year old. I can't understand it. And I know I should forgive it, I know that is what I should do, but how can you? When you are faced with such hatred and dislike, how can you turn around and love them? I don't understand how people can do it. Jesus did it. My mom does it. It still amazes me. I am SO BLESSED to have her in my life. I am so blessed to have a wonderful dad who is so smart and there. I am so blessed to have 3 absolutly amazing sisters who are always there for me, always giving me advice, always ready to call and make sure everything is okay. I am so blessed to have 3 older brothers who look after me, and would probably do anything in there power to protect me from harm. I am so blessed. Thank you. Thank you to my friends, who will always be there for me, no matter what. Thank you to my amazing mom, and family, for always being there to guide me and accept me, faults and all. I am truely blessed to have you in my life. And thank you, you know who you are, for making me realize how lucky I am to not have people like you in my everyday life. Thank you for making me see how lucky I am to have such an amazing family, who loves me, despite the fact that I do stupid stuff like drink (yes they know, I talk to my mother) and make stupid mistakes that I will learn from and become such a stronger person for. I hope someday that you will realize who you are, and what you have done. And I pray that you are forgiven. I hope that someday, I will have the strength, the love in my heart, to say "I forgive you." However I don't think that will happen any time soon. I am sorry.
I love all of you in my life. Thank you for being there for me.
And I am so thankful that I was reminded today (well yesterday actually) How Lucky and blessed I am to have such an AMAZING family. My mom, is the greatest person in the world. I know all of you reading this know her, and I know you all agree when I say she is a gift from god. I love her with all my being. There is no one who is more loving, forgiving, understanding. She is my best friend, and I can tell her anything. You can't lie to that woman. But most of all why would you want to? She is so great. I know I am faced with things that make me angry, and bitter, and upset, and hateful. But with her by my side, she makes me realize that life is full of bad people, people who are hateful, and angry, and completely crazy. But the only way we can deal with it, is by loving them. That is what the bible teaches us after all isn't? To love and accept everyone, no judging, no bias. Nothing. I know I'm an angry, and hateful person right now, especially towards certian people. And I know that I should not own things that have been said about me, said towards me, by people who don't know me at all, who don't want to know me, who don't care about me in any way shape or form. But I can't help it. It is so painful to know that these people. These "Godly" people could be so completely...uncaring, blind, and just plain stupid. It hurts so bad to know that people who should know better, should be adults, would go about and act this way, towards a 19 year old. I can't understand it. And I know I should forgive it, I know that is what I should do, but how can you? When you are faced with such hatred and dislike, how can you turn around and love them? I don't understand how people can do it. Jesus did it. My mom does it. It still amazes me. I am SO BLESSED to have her in my life. I am so blessed to have a wonderful dad who is so smart and there. I am so blessed to have 3 absolutly amazing sisters who are always there for me, always giving me advice, always ready to call and make sure everything is okay. I am so blessed to have 3 older brothers who look after me, and would probably do anything in there power to protect me from harm. I am so blessed. Thank you. Thank you to my friends, who will always be there for me, no matter what. Thank you to my amazing mom, and family, for always being there to guide me and accept me, faults and all. I am truely blessed to have you in my life. And thank you, you know who you are, for making me realize how lucky I am to not have people like you in my everyday life. Thank you for making me see how lucky I am to have such an amazing family, who loves me, despite the fact that I do stupid stuff like drink (yes they know, I talk to my mother) and make stupid mistakes that I will learn from and become such a stronger person for. I hope someday that you will realize who you are, and what you have done. And I pray that you are forgiven. I hope that someday, I will have the strength, the love in my heart, to say "I forgive you." However I don't think that will happen any time soon. I am sorry.
I love all of you in my life. Thank you for being there for me.