Christmas so far
So far I've got one of the movies I've asked for, Superbad, and also a gift card to Barnes and Noble from my family. At school I got a gift card to AMC from my secret santa and also from one of my teammates. I got a perfume set from Avon from one of my friends at work who sells avon, but now that I have it, I'm not sure it is really my kind of scent. I'm still trying it out. I also got some bath and body work stuff and other lotion from fellow teachers. Our principals gave us each a card.
This was a very slim year for gifts from the students. I got very few cards as well. One student gave me a neat little photo clip holder, another student gave me some homemade dessert items as well as a $5 gift card to starbucks. Wish they'd take the gift card at BN, but they don't, and the starbucks doesn't have the same toasted marshmallow hot chocolate that I love from the BN cafe. Oh well. I can always give the gift card to someone else in my family to use.
I've set my ultimatum time for when I give up on the people I'd been hanging with this summer. And it is the end of this year. I figure now that it is break, and they should be having get togethers, if I don't even get invited to anything by the end of the year, that will be the end of that for me. I can't keep letting myself be upset over people that so obviously don't really want to have anything to do with me. And that's just life. It means it is time to move on. Maybe this will be part of what makes it easier for me if I have to move away for a library job. I think for sure that I need to start seeing a shrink of some sort this coming year. I know I have lots of emotional problems, and lots of issues that I need to deal with. I know the whole thing that if you don't like yourself, how can you expect anyone else to like you, and I'm sure it's true as I'm still alone with no hope in sight. But I don't know how to break myself of this. Especially when situations like what happened with the people this summer seem to happen all the time. Again, I'm sure it relates back to my own feelings about myself and that it transfers over to them. But, I think to help myself with these people, I will "unfriend" them on my space so that I cannot go look at their sites and continue to see them talking about all the get togethers they're having without me. I'm not blocking them so they can't look at my site, just so that I can't go there and keep making myself feel bad. So, when I do my new year's resolutions, these will be a few of them.
Other than that, I've been somewhat enjoying the writer's strike in that I'm having time to watch the movies and tv series seasons that I've received as gifts for my birthday, and probably will receive for Christmas. I also intend to get some Sims 2 time in over Christmas break while I have no papers to grade, and none of my own classwork to do. I also hope to maybe pull out my novel from 2006 NaNoWriMo and work on it some more. I feel my novel this year pretty much sucked. But the one last year I still have some hope for it.
Okay, I've played for an hour at my library job. Now I need to get out all my lesson planning stuff and do some work for an hour.