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[temptress_tara]

:: There is no time... no air, no pain, just constant warmth and love. There are no thoughts, simply the feeling of being loved and cared for and safe. There is no identity. There is nothingness. Until....a rush of light enters this sea of souls and makes contact with somthing, with a great force of power. Tara who had no knowledge of her identity

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[trueslayer26]

I just sat there, stroking her back, trying to calm her. I knew how it felt, to be taken away from that place, Heaven. I started tearing then, again, remembering when I was pulled out from there. I know exactly how she feels.

I drew back from holding her, and looked her in the face.

"I know sweetie. I know. It seems like this for a time, but it will all get better soon. I promise it will. And we'll all help you through it."

I put a piece of hair behind her ear. "And yes, Willow's just fine. She should be coming back soon. She has Dawn and Xander with her. They kind of took a little vacation after we beat the First."

I smiled at her. Then, my smile soon faded when she asked the qustion I knew would be coming.

"Uh well.." I paused, unsure of how to put it all.

"Willow..kind of..went all evil..with the magicks I mean. Because she lost you. She hurt a lot of people, killed some people. But, in the end, it was Xander who got to her in time to stop her from destoying the world." I paused again. "I know that must all sound crazy, and very shocking and hard to believe, but that's what happened."

"But, she got better, and now shes all with the good magick. And did you know that she made all of the girls slayers with this huge spell while we were fighting the First?"

She looked at me, very confused.

"Well..she did."

"Anyway, do you want to get cleaned up now?"

[temptress_tara]

I tried to comprehend the large amount of information I had recieved in such a small amount of time. Willow? MY Willow had turned...evil? Yet I understood, because while I wasnt sure if that was what I would have done, but If someone had killed Willow, I too would have had a thirst for vengance.

I didn't blame her. I couldn't. Besides, my love for her was unconditional. There was no scenario I could see where wouldn't love her. And Willow had made all girls slayers....Wait. Does this mean I'm a slayer? Or not? I must have come back for a purpose....I shook my head as if to clear it.
I suddenly realized that Buffy was still waiting for me to answer her question.

"Oh...sure. Its just a lot to take you know?"
Buffy nodded.

I walked out of the room with her to get cleaned up, and to get some fresh clothes. Then somthing hit me. I casually...well I tried to sound casual anyway, asked my question.

"Has, um...Wi-Will met anyone new?"

[trueslayer26]

As she walked out of my room to go get cleaned up, she turned back around, and asked the other question I was really hoping I wouldn't have to answer. I looked at her.

"Well..yeah, actually." I stopped. Tara's face looked so hurt. Oh my god.

"I'm so sorry."

[temptress_tara]

For a few seconds, though it felt like hours I couldn't say word. Finally I spoke.

"Oh w-well I understand, I mean it w-would be unfair for me to expect her not to have met anyone knew, this is great for her, I'm h-happy for her. It's great"

I could tell I was rambling, and while what I said was the rational and clear thing to say, I felt so hurt that she had met someone else, perhaps even...dare I say it....move on? Would she choose me when it came down to it? I couldnt handle it. I forced myself to smile, to calm the worry I could see in Buffys eyes.

"Well, lets go get me some new clothes, huh?" I said in a perhaps too perky voice.

[trueslayer26]

Even though Tara said she was fine about it, I could tell she was really crushed. I tried to smile, but it didn't work too well. I got up and walked over to her.

"Yeah, lets get you some new clothes." I gave her a pair of my sweatpants and a t-shirt and a sweat shirt. It wasn't the best of choices, but at least she'd be comfortable, and I don't think we're going anywhere else soon.

We then headed back downstairs to where Spike and Angel were.