SO CONFUSED!
Last night Danielle IMed me online and asked me if I wanted to go to church. And I even told her that most churchs don't except my ways. But she said if I came with her that I could stay the night. And like I'm going to say no to that. COME ON!
So I went. And Brian Pisoni was there and so was Lisa (the girl that ran everyone over with her wheelie bookbag in the eighth grade) and Liea Fontino (I'm not sure if that's how you spell her name). So if I wasn't uncomfortable before I saw them, I was now.
Then after we left we went to her house and she asked me to fun her back and I did a bad job at it on purpose. And then she asked me to play with her hair and she was...orgasming while I was scratching and brushing her hair. Then her feet got cold and she asked me to rub them. So guess what...I rubbed her feet. And she started up with the orgasming. Then she asked me to rub her back for "real this time" and I did. She had me scratching and rubbing on her back for like an hour. AND I WAS IN NOOOO WAY COMPLAINING! Then when we went to bed she through her arm over the bed and I started lightly running my nail up and down her arm. Then she wanted me to do the same thing to the palm of her hand and she just loved it. I was giving her chills all night long with all that stuff.
When she finally fell asleep I was still wide awake. I couldn't help but look at her while she was sleeping. She was just so beautiful. And when her and I talked about all the things that we did last night, I realized things about her that I never knew before and I just couldn't help but feel so bad for her. She seems like the happiest person in the world but actually she isn't. She is so afraid to be herself and she is in love. Those are two things I can definately relate to. But as I was watching her sleep all I could think was about how beautiful she is and how much that I cared about her and that is when I realized that I was falling in love again and I have to stop it before it gets worse. Knowing me I will get hurt and then love her for two years until I finally get the point.
So now I have to stay away from her and not give her back rubs or feet rubs or ANYOTHER kinds of rubs. And maybe I will just forget about it.
Anyways I got to go. Homework is a bitch ain't it?
Bethany Dawn
So I went. And Brian Pisoni was there and so was Lisa (the girl that ran everyone over with her wheelie bookbag in the eighth grade) and Liea Fontino (I'm not sure if that's how you spell her name). So if I wasn't uncomfortable before I saw them, I was now.
Then after we left we went to her house and she asked me to fun her back and I did a bad job at it on purpose. And then she asked me to play with her hair and she was...orgasming while I was scratching and brushing her hair. Then her feet got cold and she asked me to rub them. So guess what...I rubbed her feet. And she started up with the orgasming. Then she asked me to rub her back for "real this time" and I did. She had me scratching and rubbing on her back for like an hour. AND I WAS IN NOOOO WAY COMPLAINING! Then when we went to bed she through her arm over the bed and I started lightly running my nail up and down her arm. Then she wanted me to do the same thing to the palm of her hand and she just loved it. I was giving her chills all night long with all that stuff.
When she finally fell asleep I was still wide awake. I couldn't help but look at her while she was sleeping. She was just so beautiful. And when her and I talked about all the things that we did last night, I realized things about her that I never knew before and I just couldn't help but feel so bad for her. She seems like the happiest person in the world but actually she isn't. She is so afraid to be herself and she is in love. Those are two things I can definately relate to. But as I was watching her sleep all I could think was about how beautiful she is and how much that I cared about her and that is when I realized that I was falling in love again and I have to stop it before it gets worse. Knowing me I will get hurt and then love her for two years until I finally get the point.
So now I have to stay away from her and not give her back rubs or feet rubs or ANYOTHER kinds of rubs. And maybe I will just forget about it.
Anyways I got to go. Homework is a bitch ain't it?
Bethany Dawn