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Jan 12, 2008 19:40

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM AN OVER EMOTIONAL WRECK... I FEEL DESPERATE AND EMPTY. BUT I SMILE ALL DAY AND STILL SING.
I HAVENT SMOKED A CIGARETTE IN TWO DAYS AND FOR ME THATS A FRIGGIN LIFETIME.... SO IM EXTRA MOOOOODY
AND ON TOP OF IT, IVE FALLEN OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH
AND EVERYONE STILL TALKS TO ME... BUT THEY COULD CARE LESS IF THEY SAW ME.
AND JASON IS KILLING ME BC THIS IS WHAT I GET WHEN HE CALLS ME

HIM "WHAT ARE YOU DOING TONIGHT?"
ME "GOING TO MALEYS"
HIM "WELL DO YOU WANT ME TO CALLL YOU TOMORROW"
IN MY HEAD... NO I WANT YOU TO COME OVER TONIGHT
ME "WHY? WHAT ARE YOU DOING TONIGHT? COME TO MALEYS"
HIM "WHAT ARE U GUYS DOING?
ME "I DONT KNOW...... I JUST WANNA SEE MY FRIENDS"
HIM WELL LET ME CALL DEZ AND DAVID AND SEE WHAT THEYRE DOING OKAY?"

SINCE WHEN DID DEZ AND DAVID COME BEFORE ME?
EVERYONE WANTED ME OUT OF THE APARTMENT BUT I JUST WANT TO GO BACK!!!

BROOKE AND ME HAVE PLANS TO MOVE TO NASHVILLE EVENTUALLY
AND JASON SAYS HE'LL COME
BUT I THINK EVERYONE JUST TALKS
BC BROOKES CHOOOSING NATE AND THOMAS OVER ME
AND JASON IS CHOOSING FUCKING DAVID AND DEZ
DESAIRE CANT EVEN BE MY FUCKING FRIEND ANYMORE
AND NATE AND THOMAS HATE ME TOO

I THINK CHELSEA IS THE ONLY ONE THATS LIKE THE SAME AS WHEN I LEFT.... A FRIGGIN WEEK AGO
AND MALEY

FUCK THIS FUCKING LAME LIFE I LIVE

BC I SUCK AT IT

I REALLY THINK THAT I CANT MAKE IT IN THIS WORLD
THERES NO WAY.

IM NOT STRONG
AND IM NOT SMART

IM WEAK
AND FUCKIN RETARDED
AND I CARE TOO FUCKIN MUCH

FUCK FUCK FUCK
THATS LIKE MY FAVORITE FUCKING WORD

AND YES IM ON MY PERIOD

AND NOW IM GONNA STEAL A CIGARETTE
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