Uh...how do I not be anxious? Sitting home doing nothing is really not who I am. If I keep going like this I will become an agoraphobic
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my meds have finally lost their ultimate effectiveness and i'm not much different from the socially-phobic cloud of doom that i used to be except that i always find the humor in less-than-perfect situations. even if it is dark humor. now my fuck buddy is the one who really needs meds - he'd never admit it but he's self-medicating with pot more than anyone else i've ever known (imagine, or can you even?) and it really just exacerbates the problem of developing a relationship - he says that i can't get close to anyone... and he's the one who's not ready to commit to anything... anyway - on our second date he said when he found out about the anti-depressents and adderall, "you know you're going to stop taking that stuff if we get serious." and i was like "yes." what the fuck, he had a lot more expectations than i did but then he pulled away while he was pulling me in and i formed them while he let them go... what i want to do for him is have a "bahamavention" because i know he (we) could use it and it might be the next best thing to meds
Damn, it does seem like the people who need help the most seem to be the least willing to admit it.
Apparently, some social phobes do that (strangely I've never feared being emotionnaly too close to someone. They pull away when they fear being emotionally too involved with someone.
I totally had to look up bahamavention. I've grown lax in my knowledge of pop culture, being horded in this fucking house for 6 months other than going to the Galleria or Big Lots.
Well a romantic getaway might be good for him, but it depends where he is in his life and his real reasons for pulling away (they probably have nothing to do with you personally).
And is it weird that I kind of regret not trying pot? Since I've become a quasi-alcholic (I drink to sleep oh...pretty much every night fearing panic attacks) Luckily I still don't think I'll become my mother) I figure I might as well have tried all the non-addicting/dangerous stuff out there.
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Apparently, some social phobes do that (strangely I've never feared being emotionnaly too close to someone. They pull away when they fear being emotionally too involved with someone.
I totally had to look up bahamavention. I've grown lax in my knowledge of pop culture, being horded in this fucking house for 6 months other than going to the Galleria or Big Lots.
Well a romantic getaway might be good for him, but it depends where he is in his life and his real reasons for pulling away (they probably have nothing to do with you personally).
And is it weird that I kind of regret not trying pot? Since I've become a quasi-alcholic (I drink to sleep oh...pretty much every night fearing panic attacks) Luckily I still don't think I'll become my mother) I figure I might as well have tried all the non-addicting/dangerous stuff out there.
Well I have always been an all or nothing gal.
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