oh god, could it be the weather?

[faithcb]

Screw the twelve step program, I thought. There really wasn't a way in hell I'd make it through bein' so... open with everyone. It just wasn't me. It wasn't the me that I'd be any good at being either

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[el_comfortador]

I can feel her start to give in, and that puts me at ease. My hand wraps around lightly to her lower back, holding her close to me, also showing support. My eye drifts closed as I kiss her, gently yet passiontately.

I suck lightly on her bottom lip, my hand moves from her chin to her cheek, my thumb lightly stroking the soft skin there, as I hold the kiss. My heart pounded in my chest, and I really don't know why. I think Faith's emotions were fueling my own, I don't know, but I don't think I really mind it.

[faithcb]

I'm so close to pulling away as he holds me closer, but I don't. Not yet. A kiss is better than being held... less overwhelming, but still... I know that he's kissing me for different reasons than I'm kissing him. I separate from him to breath, my eyes not meeting his.

"I need to... go." I whisper softly.

[el_comfortador]

Breathing heavily as she broke the kiss, I was saddened by the fact that she couldn't look me in the eye. Though she didn't pull fully away. What to do?

"Well...you don't have to go." I responded softly. "Will isn't home yet, so uh...you can hang around here." Not like she wanted to, I think I scared her or something. Shit. Great job Harris, smooth move.

[faithcb]

I brush my hair back again, glancing up towards him. "Doubt that Will even knows that I'm here," insert weak laugh of awkwardness.

He doesn't want me to go and he just admitted that he still had feelings for me. He still held close to me... I'm not sure why I didn't pull away.

[el_comfortador]

"Well, that's only because she's not home, and we have yet to join the twenty first century and get cell phones," I joked. "When she gets back we'll talk to her." It felt good having her here in my arms, and it felt better that she wasn't trying to pull away and run again.

"You can...uh, rest in my room if you want. I know it's been a long day and all," I said softly.

[faithcb]

"No," I say too quickly. "I don't need to rest."

I manuvered myself out of his arms and feel awkward again. Taking a chip, I dip it in the dressing and shove it in my mouth.

[el_comfortador]

She finally pulled away from me and is seemed like she had no idea what to do with herself. I shoved my hands in my pockets and ground my toe into the floor idly.

"We could uh...watch tv or..." Think Xander, think. Oh. Duh. "I could bring you down to the little gym we have set up downstairs. Heavy bag and stuff," I said with a hopeful look at making her feel better.

[faithcb]

I let out a breath and swallow the chip, which hurts because I didn't fully chew it up. "We could... watch something." I said. I'd usually be in the mood to head for the gym, but I knew he'd still wanna stick around.

I shuffle slightly, wondering what the kiss was about.

[el_comfortador]

Wow, she actually wants to hang out with me? Maybe it's pity. Maybe she's confused. Maybe I'm confused. Damn. What to do? Do what she really wants, and what you know she really wants.

"Well...I was thinking about hitting the gym anyway. So if you really wanna do that instead of watch tv. It's uh, it's up to you."

[faithcb]

Xander Harris wanting to hit the gym? Yeah... In what world did I slip in? This whole time after the apocalypse had been so surreal, even more now.

"Yeah, the gym." I gave a half nod of agreement.

[el_comfortador]

Faith looked almost shocked by the fact that I wanted to work out. Man she has a few things coming. Especially since I've been working out on a regular basis. I actually have toned muscles and abs and everything.

"Thought so," I said with a small smile as I trotted to my room and quickly changed into shorts and a tank and came back out. "Shall we?"

[faithcb]

I didn't have any other clothes that were workout worthy. Some jeans and shirts. The necessities. Nothing else was needed. I wouldn't be here for long.

I followed him out the door towards the gym. Yeah, right about now I felt the need to beat the shit out of a bag.