oh god, could it be the weather?

[faithcb]

Screw the twelve step program, I thought. There really wasn't a way in hell I'd make it through bein' so... open with everyone. It just wasn't me. It wasn't the me that I'd be any good at being either

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[only_xander]

After I made my grande, immature, exit I headed back over to my place and did some thinking. Sitting here on my bed, propped up against the headboard, I stare at the picture in my hands. Was a picture of me and Anya from our engagement party. She would be so mad at me...she probably is so mad at me

[faithcb]

I wonder if he even knows it's me when he invites me in. I reach for the door handle, turning it and opening the door. I settle under the doorway.

"You know... you shouldn't just invite people in without knowing if it's... a vampire or something."

I know it's probably the last thing he wants to hear - if he's even hearin' me at all.

[only_xander]

Laying back on my bed, my bedroom door open, I just smirk at her comment. "Nah, it's ok, Andrew has this placed wired. Just take a look above you, just outside the door." Smirking more, I added, "And just in case that person ends up being a vamp, and we don't know, check out the door knob. Nice blessed cross engraved in the metal."

Maybe we're just paranoid, but we sure as hell are safe. "This place is safer than fort Knox. Anyway, come on in."

[faithcb]

Right. I look up and there's this security camera. I should have expected that from the pipsqueak boy. And the blessed cross engraved in the metal is a nice touch. I close the door behind me, slipping inside the apartment.

"I just wanted to say... sorry, I guess. For this afternoon." I shifted uncomfortably.

[only_xander]

Meeting her outside my room, I lean on the doorframe with my hands in my pockets, looking down. Letting out a deep breath, I shook my head. "No, I should be the one to apologize. I...I don't know what came over me."

Lookin up, I caught her gaze. "It really is good to see you again." I said softly.

[faithcb]

"You're a guy?" I offered to him. All men were beasts. No matter how well they hid it.

I softened my look just barely. "And... thanks."

[only_xander]

"Last I checked, yeah, but still. Doesn't give me any excuse as to how I acted...what I did. I guess when you hold all your emotions and stuff in for too long, you're bound to snap." Is that what happened? Or was I acting on pure lust? Man it sucks to feel.

"Eh, don't mention it." Fidgeting idly, I sighed. "So uh...what brings you here to my lowly apartment anyway. Anything I can do for ya?"

[faithcb]

"Yeah." I gave a short laugh, "I know what snappin' is." Believe me, been there... done that. Not wantin' to relive the past.

I looked down as my stomach grumbled. I realized at that moment I hadn't eaten. "Have any food?" I asked.

[only_xander]

Somehow, I didn't doubt that she knew what it was like to snap. I mean, we all saw it. And I sure as hell wasn't going to press that subject.

I chuckled as her stomach growled, and motioned for her to follow me into the kitchen. "This is my place remember. Of course we have food," I said as we entered the kitchen. "You can have anything you want...just as long as it doesn't have an 'A' on it."

[faithcb]

"Yeah, we all know how uptight nerdboy gets about his hotpockets." I replied with a dark smirk towards Xander, moving toward the kitchen. I followed after him, taking a seat on the kitchen counter.

I rolled my eyes at the memories.

[only_xander]

I laughed as I rummaged through the pantry. Andrew may have grown up in the year since Sunnydale, but he's still the same when it comes to his damn hot pockets.

"Let's see, we have ramen noodles, pop corn, other various chips and junk food." I moved to the fridge and looked inside. "We have pie and beer and I know in the freezer we have bagel bites." Turning, I looked at her. "What's your poison?"

[faithcb]

I laughed. My god, all of that sounded good right now. "Crinkle chips?" I asked, smiling and putting my hands on my knees.

"I've had this wicked craving for those with that... ranch dip?"