not again...

Mar 09, 2006 23:56

i am so confused...and, funny enough, it has nothing to do with jim...

i feel disoriented...i have these emotions, but i don't know what they are or how to deal with them...and i know i'm over-analyzing the situations, but i can't help it...i want so desperately to know what all this means, yet i won't follow the advice i give others...if i put on my "dr. phil" face and told myself what to do, it would sound something like this:

dr. phil: so, erinn, you have this situation with two different boys.
erinn: that's right, dr. phil
dr. phil: and, i assume, they've both professed their undying love for you, right?
erinn: well, not exactly...
dr. phil: so, you've flown all the way to LA to appear on this show to fix your love life, and you don't even know if these boys like you back?
erinn: it's something like that...
dr. phil: and you've been making yourself sick over not knowing if these boys like you, but you haven't done anything about it?
erinn:...
dr. phil: how's that workin' for ya?
erinn: (bursts into tears) it's...sob...not...sob
dr. phil: well, erinn, all i can tell you is that not knowing is going to be a whole lot worse than agonizing over the situation. you can't control how those boys feel about you. all you can control is how you act.
erinn: but i'm scared...(continues to sob)
dr. phil: of course you're scared. everyone's scared of being rejected. but the only way to find true love is to suffer a little rejection along the way. what if one of these boys is mr. right and you're missing out on a great opportunity by wallowing around like a pig in mud? or, what if neither of these boys is "the one" and you've been neglecting someone who's right under your nose?
erinn: it's just, my whole life, all i've gotten from boys is rejection and "i just want to be friends." i'm so tired of being told that i'm a great friend, but nothing more. i don't know if i can handle that speech again.
dr. phil: they say what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. and think about how much more amazing it'll be when you finally find someone who feels the same way about you.
erinn: that would be pretty amazing...
dr. phil: so get yourself out there girl! tell those boys how you feel. that's all you can do. once the ball's in his court, you don't have to worry about all the "what if's?"
erinn: but, dr. phil, what if both boys tell me that they like me back?
dr. phil: well, that's another show...first go out there and talk to those boys!

so...now that you all think i've lost my mind, or developed multiple personalities...

i need to sleep, i can't think about this anymore tonight...

peace out
spank man
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