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The year in a nutshell:
Started the year in a hall that I grew to love and cherish. Had a job that I thought was perfect for me and my personality. Got confused about my position and psuedo fell in love. In other words I wanted what I couldn't have and got lost in translation. So started to secretly date boy who was probably just using me or just wanted me cause i was not to be had. Anyways got my heart broken. Broke up with the boy from St. Louis, who was not this secret love affair. (yes these characteristics are very unlike me). I got caught as an RA drinking in a dorm room with residents and lost my job. Oh yeah and I made a new best friend and lost him within two months
Had a rough couple of months. Thought my life was over, and thought i was the biggest screw up to exist. Moved into an apartment by myself and really took my new found independence too far. Had a couple of drunken nights. Had A TON of self image issues, (still working on that), and had many a nervous break downs. I found out who my best friend really was, as we have gotten through so much together and I owe so much to her. And just when I had hit rock bottom, if not lower, I was pulled out of the darkness. I met this amazing man who has never once hesitated to make me happy, safe, and loved. I realized that the Lord is there for me and comforts me when I feel alone. My family never has never past judgement on me or made me feel like I wasn't good enough. Things began to look up.
PRESENT DAY:
I am mending those friendships that matter, and though I am hesitant to get involved I am beginning to. I am completely in love and making decisions that are smart and healthy. While not everything is perfect and sometimes I still feel like I am going toward that darkness again, I press on and remember who I love and those who love me. Yes this year has been rough and while 6 months ago i feared that I had let the world down I have realized that those who really care about you stick with you even in the worst of times. And those that run away or pretend not to see me, I tell them kiss my ass cause you are missing out. I mean come on.... i can cook now...I am still a princess but sometimes I get on my hands and knees and wash my kitchen floor.
Started the year in a hall that I grew to love and cherish. Had a job that I thought was perfect for me and my personality. Got confused about my position and psuedo fell in love. In other words I wanted what I couldn't have and got lost in translation. So started to secretly date boy who was probably just using me or just wanted me cause i was not to be had. Anyways got my heart broken. Broke up with the boy from St. Louis, who was not this secret love affair. (yes these characteristics are very unlike me). I got caught as an RA drinking in a dorm room with residents and lost my job. Oh yeah and I made a new best friend and lost him within two months
Had a rough couple of months. Thought my life was over, and thought i was the biggest screw up to exist. Moved into an apartment by myself and really took my new found independence too far. Had a couple of drunken nights. Had A TON of self image issues, (still working on that), and had many a nervous break downs. I found out who my best friend really was, as we have gotten through so much together and I owe so much to her. And just when I had hit rock bottom, if not lower, I was pulled out of the darkness. I met this amazing man who has never once hesitated to make me happy, safe, and loved. I realized that the Lord is there for me and comforts me when I feel alone. My family never has never past judgement on me or made me feel like I wasn't good enough. Things began to look up.
PRESENT DAY:
I am mending those friendships that matter, and though I am hesitant to get involved I am beginning to. I am completely in love and making decisions that are smart and healthy. While not everything is perfect and sometimes I still feel like I am going toward that darkness again, I press on and remember who I love and those who love me. Yes this year has been rough and while 6 months ago i feared that I had let the world down I have realized that those who really care about you stick with you even in the worst of times. And those that run away or pretend not to see me, I tell them kiss my ass cause you are missing out. I mean come on.... i can cook now...I am still a princess but sometimes I get on my hands and knees and wash my kitchen floor.