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auuuugh first week of school.
I started feeling behind, but now that Mu Phi epsilon's first meeting is under my belt, I have less I need to do.
I need to read for classes, though ,and I'm being so laaazy. I have an abstract due tuesday and I haven't started reading the chapter. such a bad student. ;.;
I really want to pick my gpa up. Most of my friends have a FAR better gpa than I, and they were more social and outgoing than I was during college. the one who smokes pot all day shouldn't have better grades than me. The one who failed a class three times shouldn't have a higher gpa (though that was him saying so, and when I told that to someone else, they laughed at me for being that gullible, but he acted like i was a total failure ._.; "omg jill, even *I* have a better gpa than that!!!eleventyone!!1" I feel like I spent so much of college with my head up my ass. I have a handful of friends when I should probably have droves. I have mediocre grades, when I should be in the Honor's Society. So lazy. so shameful.
because I wanted to play fucking WoW or draw or go on Gaia or talk to my boyfriend all the goddamn time instead. SOSTUPID. Daydreaming and reading Harry potter fanfiction instead of practicing. Doodling and looking at youtube instead of studying... I'm a perfect example of what not to do in college.
It's a 3.224. That's not... bad, right? I know it's not good, but it's not... bad?
._. I'm not going to get into grad school at this rate. My friend with the 2.6 thinks I'm a goddamn idiot. But, I don't think I'll be able to pick it up... I don't know if I'll be able to do well in my geo course or my secondary ed course, and my music for kids class is going to scare me.
And my job-search has pretty well... come to a stop. I have the same jobs as last semester, which isn't a lot of money. 200 a month. that's not much.
If I were religious, I'd pray.
I started feeling behind, but now that Mu Phi epsilon's first meeting is under my belt, I have less I need to do.
I need to read for classes, though ,and I'm being so laaazy. I have an abstract due tuesday and I haven't started reading the chapter. such a bad student. ;.;
I really want to pick my gpa up. Most of my friends have a FAR better gpa than I, and they were more social and outgoing than I was during college. the one who smokes pot all day shouldn't have better grades than me. The one who failed a class three times shouldn't have a higher gpa (though that was him saying so, and when I told that to someone else, they laughed at me for being that gullible, but he acted like i was a total failure ._.; "omg jill, even *I* have a better gpa than that!!!eleventyone!!1" I feel like I spent so much of college with my head up my ass. I have a handful of friends when I should probably have droves. I have mediocre grades, when I should be in the Honor's Society. So lazy. so shameful.
because I wanted to play fucking WoW or draw or go on Gaia or talk to my boyfriend all the goddamn time instead. SOSTUPID. Daydreaming and reading Harry potter fanfiction instead of practicing. Doodling and looking at youtube instead of studying... I'm a perfect example of what not to do in college.
It's a 3.224. That's not... bad, right? I know it's not good, but it's not... bad?
._. I'm not going to get into grad school at this rate. My friend with the 2.6 thinks I'm a goddamn idiot. But, I don't think I'll be able to pick it up... I don't know if I'll be able to do well in my geo course or my secondary ed course, and my music for kids class is going to scare me.
And my job-search has pretty well... come to a stop. I have the same jobs as last semester, which isn't a lot of money. 200 a month. that's not much.
If I were religious, I'd pray.