nervous for my future

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in a world that we have so many freams, there isn't much hope for me right now...

with tear-filled eyes, i am scared for everything...
my grades
the reaction of my parents
what i have in terms of friends
where my life is headed
why my priorities are fucked up

i am praying on hopes and dreams that i can succeed and apply myself...
i have contiually made myself sick, with constant chest pains... this is not going to be a good break, i have a bad feeling that the tension will be high in my family because of the way i have screwed up... wishing that i could do it on my own, only knowing that i can't