Time Is Running Out
Directly to hell with 2008. This year has taken me to lows that I'd forgotten about, has strained me past my limits, has forced me to reevaluate everything and be prepared to let everything go. Several times over. The vast majority of the stories are not mine to tell, but I've been involved, sometimes tangentially, sometimes directly; I've learned more terrifying things about human beings than I ever wanted to know, and in some cases have had the venom spat directly into my eyes.
So, y'know, good work. If you were one of the people who made it your goal to break me in 2008, you've done a helluva job. Take yourself out for a nice celebratory drink or two, and maybe buy yourself a cake.
Because effective tomorrow morning at...whatever time I wake up, I'm starting the gear-up for 2009, henceforth officially known as The Year That Puts the Buffalo Back in BuffaloWmn.
Therefore, effective tomorrow morning:
1. If you're going to talk about what a horrible human being I am, you're welcome to do so--if and only if you have concrete examples with which to back it up. I hear about it when you run your mouth, you know, and not always from the sources you expect...so if you're going to talk, just keep it honest. I don't care about pretty, as long as what you're saying is true.
2. If you're going to ask me to bend over backwards for you, you no longer have the option of telling me that I'm not bending far enough. You get what I'm able to give, and if that's not enough, the problem is yours, for setting your expectations too high. Hopes can be as wild as your imagination will allow; expectations must be realistic or they will be immediately and summarily ignored.
3. My needs will come before your wants, every time, with no exceptions. If that's going to be a problem for you, now would be a good time to start reevaluating the way you see the universe...because once again, this will no longer be seen as inexcusable selfishness (and therefore a failure) on my part, but rather as inexcusable selfishness (and therefore a failure) on your part.
4. Guessing games stopped being fun when I was 12. If you need or want something from me, it will be your problem to communicate that to me. It's ok to change what you need/want partway through, and it's ok to bring me something that I might not have the tools to solve yet...but in those situations, it will be assumed that you understand point #2, and that you acknowledge that you have forfeited the right to be pissy about it when I do not immediately drop what I'm doing and revise my entire universe to suit your whims.
Any issues/concerns/questions about these points can be taken to god. I will give myself tonight to pity myself for all the bullshit I've tolerated so far (and probably spend a modest chunk of time beating myself up about having tolerated it at all)...but after that, I'm taking my life back. Anyone who cannot get on board with this plan can fuck right off--because 2009 is going to be the year in which I make myself ok again, and I fully intend to get a running start on that.
So, y'know, good work. If you were one of the people who made it your goal to break me in 2008, you've done a helluva job. Take yourself out for a nice celebratory drink or two, and maybe buy yourself a cake.
Because effective tomorrow morning at...whatever time I wake up, I'm starting the gear-up for 2009, henceforth officially known as The Year That Puts the Buffalo Back in BuffaloWmn.
Therefore, effective tomorrow morning:
1. If you're going to talk about what a horrible human being I am, you're welcome to do so--if and only if you have concrete examples with which to back it up. I hear about it when you run your mouth, you know, and not always from the sources you expect...so if you're going to talk, just keep it honest. I don't care about pretty, as long as what you're saying is true.
2. If you're going to ask me to bend over backwards for you, you no longer have the option of telling me that I'm not bending far enough. You get what I'm able to give, and if that's not enough, the problem is yours, for setting your expectations too high. Hopes can be as wild as your imagination will allow; expectations must be realistic or they will be immediately and summarily ignored.
3. My needs will come before your wants, every time, with no exceptions. If that's going to be a problem for you, now would be a good time to start reevaluating the way you see the universe...because once again, this will no longer be seen as inexcusable selfishness (and therefore a failure) on my part, but rather as inexcusable selfishness (and therefore a failure) on your part.
4. Guessing games stopped being fun when I was 12. If you need or want something from me, it will be your problem to communicate that to me. It's ok to change what you need/want partway through, and it's ok to bring me something that I might not have the tools to solve yet...but in those situations, it will be assumed that you understand point #2, and that you acknowledge that you have forfeited the right to be pissy about it when I do not immediately drop what I'm doing and revise my entire universe to suit your whims.
Any issues/concerns/questions about these points can be taken to god. I will give myself tonight to pity myself for all the bullshit I've tolerated so far (and probably spend a modest chunk of time beating myself up about having tolerated it at all)...but after that, I'm taking my life back. Anyone who cannot get on board with this plan can fuck right off--because 2009 is going to be the year in which I make myself ok again, and I fully intend to get a running start on that.