i'm gonna shed a tear
I wrote an entry about some people who do really stupid things and it just annoys the fuck out of me, it was under private. But my best friend read it and she thought it was all about her. I did right something in there about her cuz it was annoying me and i just had to to write but it turns out i was just assuming, and i was. I thought she was lying to me about something but it turns out she wasn't and i was the one thinking everything and just assuming without even talking to her about it. It's really good to be honest (except to your parents...haha jk). It wasn't all about her but it still made her feel like shit and now i feel really bad. I shouldn't even be talking about my best friend in the whole world in the first place, i should just be honest and talk to her, instead of leaving it all in and then venting about it later when i didn't even need to. Now she's pissed, and it's all my fault but i'm admitting it is. I said sry so many times and tried to explain but it doesn't work, sry doesn't really help. But i don't know how to show her that i'm really sorry and i was just assuming and i'm really stupid. I'm such a fucked up person. And she asked what it was about and i said stupid ppl, and she said who and i said don't wry it's not about u, but it was(not the whole thing) but she was still in there. But i don't know how you can tell a person o i wrote something bad about you, that's gonna make them feel even more shittier. I don't know why i even wrote that, the LAST thing i want is for my best friend to feel like shit. She is also having some issues (not crazy ones), her sister just won't leave her alone and gets her into trouble. Not like "omg mommy look what she did", no, her sister prints out her emails and shows her mom. THOSE EMAILS WERE PRIVATE! I just think that her sister is jealous hehe. I mean who wouldn't be jealous of her, she's pretty, REALLY nice, she get's along with anyone!, she's so funni, really smart, likes to have fun, and she's always there for me no matter where, when, or why, and has such great friends. I thought i was one , but now i just realized what i did and how stupid it is. haha i remember when she wrote me a note on how great of a best friend i am, and it actually made me cry! a letter made me cry!!! I feel like i've betrayed her. You know how some people have more than one best friend? well i only have one. Well i'm done writing down what i had to say, i hope she reads this, but i doubt it. I wrote this down cuz i had to get it down, get down how dumb i am. haha it sounds like i'm a drama queen, i swear i'm knot! i'm knot! o well i don't care, put down what i had to say.