Listen Up Boys and Girls.....
As some of you know, I live in Ray's house right now.I'm still looking for a job and have an interview tomorrow... You'd think that when you live in the same house with the person you love, cherish, and will one day marry; that you'd see them very often.
Well, that is not the case with Ray and I. Yes, we see each other... Yes, we spend time together but most of that "time" is when we'd usually be talking on the phone.. generally after 9pm. He had a summer class, there went that time... He's done that now... But now he works on his days off for his dad... he's lucky he gets a day off... So there goes that time... We've spent time job searching together for me, running errands together, hanging out with his friends together (yes, I said his.. Don't get me wrong, I believe that I get along with them... I could be wrong.. But our "together" time is when we lie down for the night as he drifts off to sleep and then I leave his bed...
I've noticed many things, though... I've noticed that some of his "friends" call out of convenience because they're bored.. He's noticed it too... He asked me if he was crazy when he started thinking that people (his "friends," family, etc) treat him like he was nothing and as if he was the earth they walk on... all I could do was tell him that what he notices aren't lies because those are the vibes I get too.
I could be wrong, but I doubt it. I trust few people in this world... Mostly because my intuition has never steered me wrong before... Do I have influence over what he does? Not really. There have been times I've told him to call people, but he felt the need to not hang out.. He's always asked me if I wanted to hang out with his friends--whom give me the vibe that they wished I wasn't around because I'm some shoulder weight that they have to put up with in order to hang out with Raymond-- and I've never told him "no" (no matter how I was feeling that day) because I know how important true friends are.
I'll admit that, for as much as I'd like it to be different, I'm really not all that great of friends with his. Except Amie, but she's another story. I'm treated as the "assumed" person because I'm living with him. I'm very invisible to his friends and also treated as though I'm nothing. But that's ok because I know the truth.
I won't deny Raymond anything. I support whatever he wants to do whole-heartedly, but it seems as though some people don't want to see or believe it.
I guess that only time will tell.
Well, that is not the case with Ray and I. Yes, we see each other... Yes, we spend time together but most of that "time" is when we'd usually be talking on the phone.. generally after 9pm. He had a summer class, there went that time... He's done that now... But now he works on his days off for his dad... he's lucky he gets a day off... So there goes that time... We've spent time job searching together for me, running errands together, hanging out with his friends together (yes, I said his.. Don't get me wrong, I believe that I get along with them... I could be wrong.. But our "together" time is when we lie down for the night as he drifts off to sleep and then I leave his bed...
I've noticed many things, though... I've noticed that some of his "friends" call out of convenience because they're bored.. He's noticed it too... He asked me if he was crazy when he started thinking that people (his "friends," family, etc) treat him like he was nothing and as if he was the earth they walk on... all I could do was tell him that what he notices aren't lies because those are the vibes I get too.
I could be wrong, but I doubt it. I trust few people in this world... Mostly because my intuition has never steered me wrong before... Do I have influence over what he does? Not really. There have been times I've told him to call people, but he felt the need to not hang out.. He's always asked me if I wanted to hang out with his friends--whom give me the vibe that they wished I wasn't around because I'm some shoulder weight that they have to put up with in order to hang out with Raymond-- and I've never told him "no" (no matter how I was feeling that day) because I know how important true friends are.
I'll admit that, for as much as I'd like it to be different, I'm really not all that great of friends with his. Except Amie, but she's another story. I'm treated as the "assumed" person because I'm living with him. I'm very invisible to his friends and also treated as though I'm nothing. But that's ok because I know the truth.
I won't deny Raymond anything. I support whatever he wants to do whole-heartedly, but it seems as though some people don't want to see or believe it.
I guess that only time will tell.