SENIOR LETTER.
so today, i had the great joy of having my senior letter delivered to me amongst the commotion and madness of QUEST testimonies in my first period. needless to say, it was amazing. i've seriously been waiting for this moment since i wrote. that reminds me, a little history on the senior letter if you will. [pardon the interruption, but it's my sisters birthday today (happy birthday melissa!) and she just came to my room to borrow sweats and she is so fucked up! aha, its great! anyway..] eighth grade. mrs. welch's english class. assignment: write a ten page letter to yourself which you will receive upon graduation. ugggh.. i totally was not looking forward to it, and the day before it was due i finally started on it. my goal initially was to write a page and then just copy and paste some old stories and songs, but when i started, i literally couldn't stop. it was a wonderful experience and i am so happy i did it, and was an absolutely beautiful beginning to my school day. although i doubt you'll read all of it, i decided to post it. so, without further adieu, here it is for you my friends, in all its glory, my senior letter:
Daniel Garcia
3671 Wilmington Road
Fremont CA, 94538
Dear myself,
Life kind of sucks right now, and I'm really beginning to hate it! My parents are getting divorced and I might have to move... I'm kind of okay with moving because I will get a fresh, new start you know, and just have fun. I can't stand the waiting though. I know everything will be fine, but that's then, what about now?
I'm in a transition stage right now, from pretty preppy (kind of squarish) to punky (not punky, but more alternative). I really like alternative, it's so cool! That is why I would like to move; the fresh start thing. Eighth grade has really shaped me and I am to finally be who I want to be.
I really liked eighth grade. I think it was the year that shaped me the most, and made me who I am today. Eighth grade was full of laughs and fun, it also had its share of ups and downs, like a roller coaster.
Ups:
-friends
-fun
-shaped the most
Downs:
-divorce
-moving
-dad
The past three months (possibly four since this was assigned) have been the worst in my entire fourteen years of life!! First, my dad went to rehab for alcohol and drug abuse, then, on the lasting visiting day to see him, my parents told us they were getting a divorce, and I was so looking forward to having my dad come home and he did not. Last, and finally, I will probably be moving soon! The chances are 50/50, because everything is in the air, and nothing's final, but I feel differently. I want to move, but I don't; it's so conflicting! It's close too; 40% staying to 60% going. I really don't know what I want yet... we'll see what happens. Anyway, eighth grade was still fun, I absolutely loved; I had so much fun, and it shaped me so much. It'll be one of times I remember most in my lifetime.
So many people have affected my life. Mostly family and friends of course.Times are tough, but it's these times that really test you. I try to remain strong, I know I'll get through it though. People like my mom and dad have really affected me, but my friends have really helped me get through this. I love all my friends and family so much, no matter, what, and I just want them all to know that.
Me and my friends have had so much fun this year. Whether it was inside or outside of school, I always had fun and enjoyed myself. Math was so much fun because Ms. Chiu never watched us, just think of all the memories! Our english video project was fun, but stressful, mostly fun though. Lunchtime was always fun; me and and Olivia would just sit around and laugh, probably some of the best times of my life!! I wanted to go on the DC/Boston trip with my history class, but I'm glad i didn't because I would've come back to so much drama.
I'm doing fine in school, I'm not failing or anything, but I wish I could do better because I've never gotten a 4.0 in junior high... O well,4th quarter grades are coming soon!! I want to stay in honors classes for high school and I want to at least keep a B in all my classes, if not higher. I know high school will be a blast though!
During my time out of school I love to go online (I'm a computer freak and my past time is the movies (I try to go every week and whenever I can) I also like to go the the mall, talk on the phone or hang out with my friends. Most of the time I stay home and do homework, after that, it's time for primetime TV!!
My all-time best friend is Olivia Calalo. We had so much fun whenever we were together, I used to like her in seventh grade, I even asked her out, be she rejected me! Then, she liked me in eighth grade, but I didn't ask her out because I didn't like her. We are best friends, and I love her so much. I know we will never forget each other. I might be moving and Olivia is going to Mureau, an all girls school. We're making each other journals to keep and write in over the summer, so it'll be so cool!! I will always remember Olivia.
I'm not sure what other people think of me, that's because everyone has their own opinions. I know most of my friends like me for who I am, some other people think I'm "gay", people like the "cool" kids, that's because they don't know who I am, they judge me without getting to know me and I hate that. Being "punky" doesn't help, but that's who I am. I really like my friends though and I'm happy, I just don't like people who don't like me or think high of themselves because it's really annoying and stupid. I haven't had any girlfriends this year, but I've liked a few people like: Cassie, Ada, Andrea, Jessica Leandro, Teresa (a lil), and Olivia (not sure). In seventh grade Annie and Teresa were my girlfriends. Me and Teresa were a couple for a while on and off, but that's it, nothing really exciting. But I remember me say[ing], "I'm gonna have a girlfriend this year." What a dork, lol.
I had a lot of insecurities this year. Mostly I was insecure about my body, who I was, and my sexuality. I thought I was too fat, I just didn't like my body. At first I really hated not knowing who I was, then I realized that I'm only fourteen and I shouldn't be worrying about that -- but now I realize I'm punkish, strong, and cool, but I'm me. These times have really tested me, and I just realized that's who I am. I'm gay, aren't I? I don't know. I've been contemplating that, but I am comfortable with myself, and I really don't care!
I have spikey hair and I want to change it sooo sooo bad! I am punky now and things that I like or think are cool. Fads come and go, since I like my style, that's what I wear.
I've seen some of my favorite movies this year like: Lost in Translation, The Passion of The Christ, and Monster, which is pretty awesome. I love TV too, especially primetime TV and reality shows. My favorite shows are Alias (drama), Best Week Ever (comedy) and that's pretty much it, I'll watch anything if it's interesting though. I love music too. My favorite bands are: Sugarcult, Avril Lavigne, with others. I love alternative music though, it's sooo good and it just takes you away and you can feel it.
I think I'm cool along with my friends. I really can't judge though, when everyone has their own opinions, and none of them are true because it's just how you look at it.
I'm not involved in anything right now. I used to do track and field training at Irvington, and I used to do boy/cub scouts. That was awhile ago though. You really get into sports in high school, so I'll see. I really want to get in drama and acting though, because I'm really expressive and I enjoy it. I wanted to get a job this summer, but I don't know yet. I turned in an application at Togo's but I haven't gotten anything [back] yet.
Many things happened this year, not just to me but to the nation (corny) as well. Recently, President Ronald Reagen died. I never knew anything about him, but now I wish I did, he seemed interesting and cool. We also went to war with Iraq.. My cousin Gregory was drafted there, which was scary. Everything is fine though, we are still in Iraq, but we caught Saddam. Gas prices are soo high now, everyone's going crazy. This year was very eventful to say the least.
One of my goals when I grow up is to be in the movie business. I would really like to direct or act, my highest goal would be to win an Oscar, that would be so amazing, I could just imagine, so wonderful! Those are really my main goals, I would really like to do many other things though too. Like: travel the world (so much fun), bungee jump, sky dive, and other crazy things. Those would all be so much fun!! I love it!!
I think I will change so much over the course of four years. Hopefully I will change fore the good (not that I'm bad or anything), and hopefully I will have the same goals in mind because they seem so great and they all would be amazing achievements. I hope to remain myself mostly though, and I want to grow a lot as a person.
I think we will remain the same on the inside, just our physical appearance will change. I just hope we'll grow stronger and be a more loving and happier family. I have no idea who I will go out with and ho I won't, but I've always had a crush on Angelina Jolie. I'm not sure what will be in either, with all the crazy fads and fashions we've had, anything is fair game.
At Irvington my classes will be social dance, CCA honors bio, CCA honors algebra 2, dram 1 and that's it, I got all the classes I wanted which is good but I'm not sure if I will go to Irvington though, but I think I'll succeed wherever I go. I don't know who will drop out, I know I won't thought, I really want to graduate, and I know high school will be tons of fun, so I want to be there for it. I can't wait though!
I know I'm going to grow so much and who knows what will happen, I just want to stay true to myself and who I am. Writing this was an amazing experience and I'm so glad that I did it because i[t] will be so much fun to read this and remember all the fun I had. I put so much time and effort into this and I'm glad I did because I grew from this, even though it may seem like a tiny thing. I originally had plans to not do this and just copy and paste my favorite songs and stories, now I am so glad I didn't. On the next pages are two of my favorite songs -- Avril Lavigne's "How Does It Feel", an emotional, amazing feelings song, and Gary Jules featuring Michael Andrews "Mad World", a great about life and the feelings everyone has.
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger." -Daria
"Mad World"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
"How Does It Feel"
I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know that I can breathe
I don't need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly
I am small 'n the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
I am young 'n I am free
But I get tired an' I get weak
I get lost 'n I can't sleep
But suddenly, suddenly
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
Would you comfort me
Would you cry with me here
I am small 'n the world is big
But I'm not afraid of anything
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
[Repeat till fade]
Oh Oh oh...
-Daniel E. Garcia
Daniel Garcia
3671 Wilmington Road
Fremont CA, 94538
Dear myself,
Life kind of sucks right now, and I'm really beginning to hate it! My parents are getting divorced and I might have to move... I'm kind of okay with moving because I will get a fresh, new start you know, and just have fun. I can't stand the waiting though. I know everything will be fine, but that's then, what about now?
I'm in a transition stage right now, from pretty preppy (kind of squarish) to punky (not punky, but more alternative). I really like alternative, it's so cool! That is why I would like to move; the fresh start thing. Eighth grade has really shaped me and I am to finally be who I want to be.
I really liked eighth grade. I think it was the year that shaped me the most, and made me who I am today. Eighth grade was full of laughs and fun, it also had its share of ups and downs, like a roller coaster.
Ups:
-friends
-fun
-shaped the most
Downs:
-divorce
-moving
-dad
The past three months (possibly four since this was assigned) have been the worst in my entire fourteen years of life!! First, my dad went to rehab for alcohol and drug abuse, then, on the lasting visiting day to see him, my parents told us they were getting a divorce, and I was so looking forward to having my dad come home and he did not. Last, and finally, I will probably be moving soon! The chances are 50/50, because everything is in the air, and nothing's final, but I feel differently. I want to move, but I don't; it's so conflicting! It's close too; 40% staying to 60% going. I really don't know what I want yet... we'll see what happens. Anyway, eighth grade was still fun, I absolutely loved; I had so much fun, and it shaped me so much. It'll be one of times I remember most in my lifetime.
So many people have affected my life. Mostly family and friends of course.Times are tough, but it's these times that really test you. I try to remain strong, I know I'll get through it though. People like my mom and dad have really affected me, but my friends have really helped me get through this. I love all my friends and family so much, no matter, what, and I just want them all to know that.
Me and my friends have had so much fun this year. Whether it was inside or outside of school, I always had fun and enjoyed myself. Math was so much fun because Ms. Chiu never watched us, just think of all the memories! Our english video project was fun, but stressful, mostly fun though. Lunchtime was always fun; me and and Olivia would just sit around and laugh, probably some of the best times of my life!! I wanted to go on the DC/Boston trip with my history class, but I'm glad i didn't because I would've come back to so much drama.
I'm doing fine in school, I'm not failing or anything, but I wish I could do better because I've never gotten a 4.0 in junior high... O well,4th quarter grades are coming soon!! I want to stay in honors classes for high school and I want to at least keep a B in all my classes, if not higher. I know high school will be a blast though!
During my time out of school I love to go online (I'm a computer freak and my past time is the movies (I try to go every week and whenever I can) I also like to go the the mall, talk on the phone or hang out with my friends. Most of the time I stay home and do homework, after that, it's time for primetime TV!!
My all-time best friend is Olivia Calalo. We had so much fun whenever we were together, I used to like her in seventh grade, I even asked her out, be she rejected me! Then, she liked me in eighth grade, but I didn't ask her out because I didn't like her. We are best friends, and I love her so much. I know we will never forget each other. I might be moving and Olivia is going to Mureau, an all girls school. We're making each other journals to keep and write in over the summer, so it'll be so cool!! I will always remember Olivia.
I'm not sure what other people think of me, that's because everyone has their own opinions. I know most of my friends like me for who I am, some other people think I'm "gay", people like the "cool" kids, that's because they don't know who I am, they judge me without getting to know me and I hate that. Being "punky" doesn't help, but that's who I am. I really like my friends though and I'm happy, I just don't like people who don't like me or think high of themselves because it's really annoying and stupid. I haven't had any girlfriends this year, but I've liked a few people like: Cassie, Ada, Andrea, Jessica Leandro, Teresa (a lil), and Olivia (not sure). In seventh grade Annie and Teresa were my girlfriends. Me and Teresa were a couple for a while on and off, but that's it, nothing really exciting. But I remember me say[ing], "I'm gonna have a girlfriend this year." What a dork, lol.
I had a lot of insecurities this year. Mostly I was insecure about my body, who I was, and my sexuality. I thought I was too fat, I just didn't like my body. At first I really hated not knowing who I was, then I realized that I'm only fourteen and I shouldn't be worrying about that -- but now I realize I'm punkish, strong, and cool, but I'm me. These times have really tested me, and I just realized that's who I am. I'm gay, aren't I? I don't know. I've been contemplating that, but I am comfortable with myself, and I really don't care!
I have spikey hair and I want to change it sooo sooo bad! I am punky now and things that I like or think are cool. Fads come and go, since I like my style, that's what I wear.
I've seen some of my favorite movies this year like: Lost in Translation, The Passion of The Christ, and Monster, which is pretty awesome. I love TV too, especially primetime TV and reality shows. My favorite shows are Alias (drama), Best Week Ever (comedy) and that's pretty much it, I'll watch anything if it's interesting though. I love music too. My favorite bands are: Sugarcult, Avril Lavigne, with others. I love alternative music though, it's sooo good and it just takes you away and you can feel it.
I think I'm cool along with my friends. I really can't judge though, when everyone has their own opinions, and none of them are true because it's just how you look at it.
I'm not involved in anything right now. I used to do track and field training at Irvington, and I used to do boy/cub scouts. That was awhile ago though. You really get into sports in high school, so I'll see. I really want to get in drama and acting though, because I'm really expressive and I enjoy it. I wanted to get a job this summer, but I don't know yet. I turned in an application at Togo's but I haven't gotten anything [back] yet.
Many things happened this year, not just to me but to the nation (corny) as well. Recently, President Ronald Reagen died. I never knew anything about him, but now I wish I did, he seemed interesting and cool. We also went to war with Iraq.. My cousin Gregory was drafted there, which was scary. Everything is fine though, we are still in Iraq, but we caught Saddam. Gas prices are soo high now, everyone's going crazy. This year was very eventful to say the least.
One of my goals when I grow up is to be in the movie business. I would really like to direct or act, my highest goal would be to win an Oscar, that would be so amazing, I could just imagine, so wonderful! Those are really my main goals, I would really like to do many other things though too. Like: travel the world (so much fun), bungee jump, sky dive, and other crazy things. Those would all be so much fun!! I love it!!
I think I will change so much over the course of four years. Hopefully I will change fore the good (not that I'm bad or anything), and hopefully I will have the same goals in mind because they seem so great and they all would be amazing achievements. I hope to remain myself mostly though, and I want to grow a lot as a person.
I think we will remain the same on the inside, just our physical appearance will change. I just hope we'll grow stronger and be a more loving and happier family. I have no idea who I will go out with and ho I won't, but I've always had a crush on Angelina Jolie. I'm not sure what will be in either, with all the crazy fads and fashions we've had, anything is fair game.
At Irvington my classes will be social dance, CCA honors bio, CCA honors algebra 2, dram 1 and that's it, I got all the classes I wanted which is good but I'm not sure if I will go to Irvington though, but I think I'll succeed wherever I go. I don't know who will drop out, I know I won't thought, I really want to graduate, and I know high school will be tons of fun, so I want to be there for it. I can't wait though!
I know I'm going to grow so much and who knows what will happen, I just want to stay true to myself and who I am. Writing this was an amazing experience and I'm so glad that I did it because i[t] will be so much fun to read this and remember all the fun I had. I put so much time and effort into this and I'm glad I did because I grew from this, even though it may seem like a tiny thing. I originally had plans to not do this and just copy and paste my favorite songs and stories, now I am so glad I didn't. On the next pages are two of my favorite songs -- Avril Lavigne's "How Does It Feel", an emotional, amazing feelings song, and Gary Jules featuring Michael Andrews "Mad World", a great about life and the feelings everyone has.
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger." -Daria
"Mad World"
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world
"How Does It Feel"
I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know that I can breathe
I don't need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly
I am small 'n the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
I am young 'n I am free
But I get tired an' I get weak
I get lost 'n I can't sleep
But suddenly, suddenly
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
Would you comfort me
Would you cry with me here
I am small 'n the world is big
But I'm not afraid of anything
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
[Repeat till fade]
Oh Oh oh...
-Daniel E. Garcia