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im new to this but i just wanted to get this off my chest...im sitting here right now holding my pet Rat, and waiting for her to pass away in my arms...shes got a lump on the inside of her left hind leg, which the vet said was a tumor...i didnt have the money to get it removed, so the vet said to just keep her comfortable and let her live her life out...she's almost 3yrs old, and i know that that is very good for a rat, but i still cant help but get upset thinking about her dying...she is the first rat that i have ever owned, and she is my baby...she started to get really bad yesterday morning, and we thought that she was going to die yesterday, but my baby has kept pushing through it...i finally got her to drink some water out of a syringe today, and she acted a little better, but shes still not doing very well..the only thing im doing now is keeping her comfortable until she goes....shes lost just about all control of her arms and legs, and kind of drags herself around her cage..shes not eating (she tried earlier today but had no success at it)..but she did act like she wanted some water..drank quite eagerly as a matter of fact..so i've been keeping her hydrated...i am surprised she has lasted this long..i guess she has a will to live...
part of me is being selfish and am glad that she is trying to push through it and survive..but the other part of me is wanting so bad for her to give up and pass on and stop making herself suffer...i've made the decision that if she makes it through tonight and continues trying to push through tomorrow that im going to take matters into my own hands and go have her euthanized...shes notgoing to get any better, even with my watering and trying to feed her, and i cant stand to see my baby suffering like she is....im just hoping that she will pass away at home in her cage, comfy in her little house, instead of dying by a cold needle inside of her........
part of me is being selfish and am glad that she is trying to push through it and survive..but the other part of me is wanting so bad for her to give up and pass on and stop making herself suffer...i've made the decision that if she makes it through tonight and continues trying to push through tomorrow that im going to take matters into my own hands and go have her euthanized...shes notgoing to get any better, even with my watering and trying to feed her, and i cant stand to see my baby suffering like she is....im just hoping that she will pass away at home in her cage, comfy in her little house, instead of dying by a cold needle inside of her........