WTF Brother
Like how I have abandoned all my online things...I suck
Not that there is anything going on in my life to write about.
My 90 days was up @ work today, I can't believe I've been there for 90 days.
I can't believe that Rayma has been gone for over 96 days.
I cried at work the morning of her birthday, the 27th, we were both born on the 27th in months that start with J. I felt kind of silly crying at work & I was trying to hide in the kitchen, but MaryAnne found me, and hugged me & said everything I needed to hear. I work with some Fab ladies, I got Lucky there. I couldn't help crying though, one of those times you just have no control. ya know?
It still hurts, it hurts me so much
I wanted to call Rayma & tell her Happy Birthday..but I can't
& that's one of those times that it really sinks in, & becomes real
I can't call my childhood Best Friend on her 22nd birthday because she's not here
Life is so strange
& where does all this time go exactly
Sometimes I feel like I am standing still & everyone is flying by me
I have had Dolly for a month, & She's gained a pound, & made me smile & I Love her SO much it is unbelieveable. And Maybe it is silly, but I also sort of feel like Dolly is another thing Rayma did for me
All in all though I am fairly happy. I need to loose some weight & I'm working on those bills....but it's all minor things. In the Big picture, my life..is good & I am happy. Tommorrow is even pay day.
I am also tired, & I want some Rice Pudding & a Cigarette (something else that still has to go), my insurance kicked in today which means I can go to the eye doctor, I want a L.A.M.B bag & a new pair of Chucks & I can't fucking wait until April!
Not that there is anything going on in my life to write about.
My 90 days was up @ work today, I can't believe I've been there for 90 days.
I can't believe that Rayma has been gone for over 96 days.
I cried at work the morning of her birthday, the 27th, we were both born on the 27th in months that start with J. I felt kind of silly crying at work & I was trying to hide in the kitchen, but MaryAnne found me, and hugged me & said everything I needed to hear. I work with some Fab ladies, I got Lucky there. I couldn't help crying though, one of those times you just have no control. ya know?
It still hurts, it hurts me so much
I wanted to call Rayma & tell her Happy Birthday..but I can't
& that's one of those times that it really sinks in, & becomes real
I can't call my childhood Best Friend on her 22nd birthday because she's not here
Life is so strange
& where does all this time go exactly
Sometimes I feel like I am standing still & everyone is flying by me
I have had Dolly for a month, & She's gained a pound, & made me smile & I Love her SO much it is unbelieveable. And Maybe it is silly, but I also sort of feel like Dolly is another thing Rayma did for me
All in all though I am fairly happy. I need to loose some weight & I'm working on those bills....but it's all minor things. In the Big picture, my life..is good & I am happy. Tommorrow is even pay day.
I am also tired, & I want some Rice Pudding & a Cigarette (something else that still has to go), my insurance kicked in today which means I can go to the eye doctor, I want a L.A.M.B bag & a new pair of Chucks & I can't fucking wait until April!