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I just want to say one thing, get it off my chest before I explode.
My family keep asking "are you ok?" with concern in their voices. "You're a bit quiet" When I was taken out to lunch yesterday and didn't really talk at all. Which is unlike me.
What I want to know is how they expect me to be. I just buried a wonderful human being on friday and it was their birthday on saturday. What? I'm supposed to bouce back friday night like this hasn't effected me in any way? They and their family are a big part of my life and I still quite believe that they have gone. And I miss them like my heart has been torn out.
So no, I'm not ok. Yes I'm a bit quiet. But I'm coping. In my own way.