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[buddhatherock]

I think I am quite literally starting to go crazy. I hide it well, but I am an emotional mess right now. So much has gone on lately. Truck died. Money is tight. People around me that I care about are getting sick (or worse). People, friends and family, seem to be distancing themselves form me. Work sucks because I feel like I'm being held back and not being allowed to show my true potential for the company. I feel cold. I feel alone. I can't sleep at night anymore. Often times I'm up for hours. Far too many hours. If I try to sleep, I either think about things that I don't need to think about while I sleep, which usually result in nightmares, or I just stare at the ceiling. Everything feels like it's piling up on me. I know that I could have it a lot worse. There's people out there that have real, legitimate problems, and that's why I don't like to talk about my own problems, because I don't want to discredit them or be a burden. I don't feel my problems are real problems in the scope of things. But... I feel like I'm literally going crazy.

I honestly feel like maybe I need real help. From a professional. I can't explain it. I just feel unstable right now.