Haven't posted in a long time. Last semester as a Senior is Busy
So this is a busy semester. Those of you who have already graduated I am sure you understand.
The biggest focus in my life right now it trying to find a future (not just a job) and give back to the community.
When I say trying to find a future what I mean is I have finally come to a point in my life where I was tired of being stressed out. I was tired of feeling like I was a step behind where I was supposed to be and thus feeling like my life was in a rut.
It is a not a matter, I have realized, of having complete control but rather working WITH my life.
The first way I have done this is by setting goals for myself each week that I should accomplish each day.
For example:
I started with the goals of going to the gym everyday, waking up before 9am, doing yoga, and mediation and prayer everyday. It helps that now I have a partner who goes to the gym with me. So I have accomplished going to the gym everyday. There a couple days where I missed but I have ACCEPTED that it might not happen everyday because of circumstances and therefore I do not beat myself up over those times.
I read three scriptures everynight before I go to bed. They are the Prayer of Jabeez, 1 Cor. 13, and Phillipians 4. These reaffirm my beliefs in prayer and love. I then meditate with my beads.
Doing these things have given me more good days than bad. Some days are still blah but they are not BAD days. I am able to work through them without problems.
I have not yet accomplished the waking up before 9am everyday or yoga but I continue to strive for the goal and that is the point. I have woking up before 9 at least three days this week which is an improvement. And that is what I look for--improvement not perfection.
Good things are happening because I do these things. I don't have acne nearly as bad as I used to. I am tightening up if not losing weight, which I have lost a little. And I generally feel happier.
I have also found that I get along with my grandfather better. I am able to handle comments he makes with less anger--that does not mean I don't get frustrated with him at times--it just means that I can be more patient and understanding of him.
The other thing I think which has really helped is finding a doctor who knows what they are doing with my medication.
My medication is a huge factor that has helped me to begin to make the life changes that will continue to help me stay balanced. When I was on the wrong amounts of meds I had no drive or energy to make the right choices.
I also believe that my family and friends keeping me in their prayers have helped me.
In general I hope that everyone can come to the same realizations I have. Stressing out is not worth the health problems it causes. Worrying about what might come next is no use. It will happen when it happens, how it happens.
I just pray that all people will find the blessings in life and continue to smile and laugh as much as possible.
Love and Peace,
Tiffani
The biggest focus in my life right now it trying to find a future (not just a job) and give back to the community.
When I say trying to find a future what I mean is I have finally come to a point in my life where I was tired of being stressed out. I was tired of feeling like I was a step behind where I was supposed to be and thus feeling like my life was in a rut.
It is a not a matter, I have realized, of having complete control but rather working WITH my life.
The first way I have done this is by setting goals for myself each week that I should accomplish each day.
For example:
I started with the goals of going to the gym everyday, waking up before 9am, doing yoga, and mediation and prayer everyday. It helps that now I have a partner who goes to the gym with me. So I have accomplished going to the gym everyday. There a couple days where I missed but I have ACCEPTED that it might not happen everyday because of circumstances and therefore I do not beat myself up over those times.
I read three scriptures everynight before I go to bed. They are the Prayer of Jabeez, 1 Cor. 13, and Phillipians 4. These reaffirm my beliefs in prayer and love. I then meditate with my beads.
Doing these things have given me more good days than bad. Some days are still blah but they are not BAD days. I am able to work through them without problems.
I have not yet accomplished the waking up before 9am everyday or yoga but I continue to strive for the goal and that is the point. I have woking up before 9 at least three days this week which is an improvement. And that is what I look for--improvement not perfection.
Good things are happening because I do these things. I don't have acne nearly as bad as I used to. I am tightening up if not losing weight, which I have lost a little. And I generally feel happier.
I have also found that I get along with my grandfather better. I am able to handle comments he makes with less anger--that does not mean I don't get frustrated with him at times--it just means that I can be more patient and understanding of him.
The other thing I think which has really helped is finding a doctor who knows what they are doing with my medication.
My medication is a huge factor that has helped me to begin to make the life changes that will continue to help me stay balanced. When I was on the wrong amounts of meds I had no drive or energy to make the right choices.
I also believe that my family and friends keeping me in their prayers have helped me.
In general I hope that everyone can come to the same realizations I have. Stressing out is not worth the health problems it causes. Worrying about what might come next is no use. It will happen when it happens, how it happens.
I just pray that all people will find the blessings in life and continue to smile and laugh as much as possible.
Love and Peace,
Tiffani