Distraction from the burn
There have been a lot of bad things building up lately. I have some major fixer-uppers on my plate. It's gonna require some extra motivation to want to wake up and face tomorrow. But, I can do it.
I think a good mental breakdown is in order. A growing part of me wants to throw my hands up for a few minutes and just cry. And, then laugh hysterically. And, while wiping the tears off my beat-red face, convince myself to put all these silly things in perspective. Mental breakdowns certainly have no place in my schedule in terms of productivity. But, it does serve to cleanse myself of a lot of things that I just need to get off my chest. It's a ritual that even a cigarette or a hot cup of tea are incapable of emulating.
I have been a weak person. Shamefully so, in fact. And, this process always sucks, because feeling like this breeds codependency. And, when I want most for someone to put their arms around me and tell me everything will be okay, they're often not there. Not to mention that it breeds this longing for escape. And, this escape leads to a further deferance of my responsibilities 'til later. I thought that I had learned not to dig myself this hole. There are a lot of holes that I have not yet learned to stay away from.
LiveJournal, I write a lot of the same kinds of depressing shit in here. I know. You will be the first to tell me that my life is comprised of countless cycles of the same mistakes and shortcomings. So, I think what we need now is a cleansing of sorts. I just need to sit here and reflect on things. I haven't had a random discussion about obscure things. That usually calms me down. Helps restore some perspective on things.
Here's some random fascination. People often laugh about Dayton, Ohio. But, every time I've gone to functions with area business leaders, I'm always amazed at what kinds of really cool things are going on in Dayton. Wright State collaborating with UD and Wright-Patt with developing Ohio's first degree in renewable energy. The development of the TechTown development on the downtown riverfront. The tons of development that is springing up around the base due to the Base Realignment that is bringing in tons of stuff into the Dayton area. Dayton is slowly positioning itself to become one of the few tech centers within the Midwest. Sure, Dayton, like most other Ohio cities, have been hit hard by the latest economic misfortunes; GM, DHL, Delphi, etc. closing plants and cutting jobs. But, unlike my cherished hometown, it has been doing a wonderful job adjusting to the changing times in our economy. I wouldn't be surprised to see Dayton flourish in the next 10 years. Who knows... maybe I'll have to return here and set up shop for awhile!
I am inspired by stories of people working hard and growing new opportunities. I needed some of this to help motivate me to conquer this upcoming week of hell.
I think a good mental breakdown is in order. A growing part of me wants to throw my hands up for a few minutes and just cry. And, then laugh hysterically. And, while wiping the tears off my beat-red face, convince myself to put all these silly things in perspective. Mental breakdowns certainly have no place in my schedule in terms of productivity. But, it does serve to cleanse myself of a lot of things that I just need to get off my chest. It's a ritual that even a cigarette or a hot cup of tea are incapable of emulating.
I have been a weak person. Shamefully so, in fact. And, this process always sucks, because feeling like this breeds codependency. And, when I want most for someone to put their arms around me and tell me everything will be okay, they're often not there. Not to mention that it breeds this longing for escape. And, this escape leads to a further deferance of my responsibilities 'til later. I thought that I had learned not to dig myself this hole. There are a lot of holes that I have not yet learned to stay away from.
LiveJournal, I write a lot of the same kinds of depressing shit in here. I know. You will be the first to tell me that my life is comprised of countless cycles of the same mistakes and shortcomings. So, I think what we need now is a cleansing of sorts. I just need to sit here and reflect on things. I haven't had a random discussion about obscure things. That usually calms me down. Helps restore some perspective on things.
Here's some random fascination. People often laugh about Dayton, Ohio. But, every time I've gone to functions with area business leaders, I'm always amazed at what kinds of really cool things are going on in Dayton. Wright State collaborating with UD and Wright-Patt with developing Ohio's first degree in renewable energy. The development of the TechTown development on the downtown riverfront. The tons of development that is springing up around the base due to the Base Realignment that is bringing in tons of stuff into the Dayton area. Dayton is slowly positioning itself to become one of the few tech centers within the Midwest. Sure, Dayton, like most other Ohio cities, have been hit hard by the latest economic misfortunes; GM, DHL, Delphi, etc. closing plants and cutting jobs. But, unlike my cherished hometown, it has been doing a wonderful job adjusting to the changing times in our economy. I wouldn't be surprised to see Dayton flourish in the next 10 years. Who knows... maybe I'll have to return here and set up shop for awhile!
I am inspired by stories of people working hard and growing new opportunities. I needed some of this to help motivate me to conquer this upcoming week of hell.