Long time no...type?
It's been quite a while since I've visited this thing they call "Livejournal."
Life has been rather crazy if I do say so myself...
Have you ever had that feeling that something is wrong and you know what that something is, but you don't want to admit it? That's how I feel right now. I feel as though everything I have worked for in the past few years has now been tossed out the window.
School is probably the main reason why I feel this way. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE school, but I don't have ANY classes with any of my friends. All my friends are either (1) Off at a 4 year University, (2) Go to Highschool, or (3) Have all their classes in the afternoons, while I have to go during the evening.
I feel like I can only talk to certain people about my life anymore. It's funny how I can open up to someone, who lives about an hour and a half away from home, more than I can anyone here. Is that a bad thing?
Just to let you know, I can tell when you are irritated with me and I can tell when you want nothing to do with me anymore. It's sorda like a 6th sense I was granted with. I know that sounds silly, but it's true. I've been getting this vibe from quite a few of my friends lately and it hurts. I can't help it that I'm not around enough to know all of your inside jokes and I'm sorry if I seem to ramble on about the events that have happened in my life lately.
Sometimes I wonder why God was so good to me. He granted me with the best family. Although we are a broken family, I love them dearly and they love me. I just wish it were that easy with friends. Friendships are like video games. Once you have conquered the game and know all of it's little quirks and hidden levels, it's not fun anymore. You either trade it in for a new one or hand it down to someone who can find a better use of it.
I have made many new friends in the past 6 months and I am blessed for that. I have become closer with quite a few friends that I have known since 8th grade and it is possibly the best feeling ever! I learn something new about them everyday. I have also become closer with only a select few from elementary school. But as one of those dear friends recently said, "On a scale of 1-10, with 10 being knowing everything there is about me, I would say you rank as a 9."
To all my true friends: YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!
P.S. You should try Dance Dance Revolution, not that I own it or anything.
Life has been rather crazy if I do say so myself...
Have you ever had that feeling that something is wrong and you know what that something is, but you don't want to admit it? That's how I feel right now. I feel as though everything I have worked for in the past few years has now been tossed out the window.
School is probably the main reason why I feel this way. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE school, but I don't have ANY classes with any of my friends. All my friends are either (1) Off at a 4 year University, (2) Go to Highschool, or (3) Have all their classes in the afternoons, while I have to go during the evening.
I feel like I can only talk to certain people about my life anymore. It's funny how I can open up to someone, who lives about an hour and a half away from home, more than I can anyone here. Is that a bad thing?
Just to let you know, I can tell when you are irritated with me and I can tell when you want nothing to do with me anymore. It's sorda like a 6th sense I was granted with. I know that sounds silly, but it's true. I've been getting this vibe from quite a few of my friends lately and it hurts. I can't help it that I'm not around enough to know all of your inside jokes and I'm sorry if I seem to ramble on about the events that have happened in my life lately.
Sometimes I wonder why God was so good to me. He granted me with the best family. Although we are a broken family, I love them dearly and they love me. I just wish it were that easy with friends. Friendships are like video games. Once you have conquered the game and know all of it's little quirks and hidden levels, it's not fun anymore. You either trade it in for a new one or hand it down to someone who can find a better use of it.
I have made many new friends in the past 6 months and I am blessed for that. I have become closer with quite a few friends that I have known since 8th grade and it is possibly the best feeling ever! I learn something new about them everyday. I have also become closer with only a select few from elementary school. But as one of those dear friends recently said, "On a scale of 1-10, with 10 being knowing everything there is about me, I would say you rank as a 9."
To all my true friends: YOU ROCK MY WORLD!!
P.S. You should try Dance Dance Revolution, not that I own it or anything.