but i guess, we're all insecure...
i have just discovered the most brilliant song. in my mums cd collection of all places. its called insecurity by arkarna??? but i cant find the lyrics anywhere. dammit.
have just been looking at the courses i can do in canada. my darling father is now trying every possible way to persuade me to go to university this year. 'expand your options' is the catchphrase. ahahahahaha. there is no way in hell i am going to uni now. what will i do without a year of the american high-school life i hav now psyched myself up for?
anyway - some of them look good - others look shite. have to do english, and thats fine. then there's history, it, biology and then some random stuff like communication and other stuff 2. but it looks ok.
thing is - what he fails to realise is that its GOOD if ive done all the work before, coz then i look really clever, and i ace all my exams anf then i can get into any uni. aha. didn't think of that eh?
anyway - ermmm - nothing much to say - need a leavers book but im tempted not to get one coz theyre so fake and cheesy, with completely insincere messages since no1 knows what to say.
also, i am so worried bout making friends. i realise thats sounds increadibly pathetic but im so stressed that after about an hour theyre like U R A REJECT. and im all alone *sniff*.
also, if the guy situation does not improve when im at a mixed school, then there is no other option but to admit that it is me who is causing my acute spinster-ness, not my situation. which means ill have to get my 11 cats and blue-rinse quicker than i thought.
ps - can every1 come nxt friday 2 el beach so we can burn the book, eat icecream, hav a barbeque, and hav a teary, sandy goodbye...?
have just been looking at the courses i can do in canada. my darling father is now trying every possible way to persuade me to go to university this year. 'expand your options' is the catchphrase. ahahahahaha. there is no way in hell i am going to uni now. what will i do without a year of the american high-school life i hav now psyched myself up for?
anyway - some of them look good - others look shite. have to do english, and thats fine. then there's history, it, biology and then some random stuff like communication and other stuff 2. but it looks ok.
thing is - what he fails to realise is that its GOOD if ive done all the work before, coz then i look really clever, and i ace all my exams anf then i can get into any uni. aha. didn't think of that eh?
anyway - ermmm - nothing much to say - need a leavers book but im tempted not to get one coz theyre so fake and cheesy, with completely insincere messages since no1 knows what to say.
also, i am so worried bout making friends. i realise thats sounds increadibly pathetic but im so stressed that after about an hour theyre like U R A REJECT. and im all alone *sniff*.
also, if the guy situation does not improve when im at a mixed school, then there is no other option but to admit that it is me who is causing my acute spinster-ness, not my situation. which means ill have to get my 11 cats and blue-rinse quicker than i thought.
ps - can every1 come nxt friday 2 el beach so we can burn the book, eat icecream, hav a barbeque, and hav a teary, sandy goodbye...?