Not gettin better
Its still so unreal. THANK YOU to all my friends who have listened or said they'd be my shoulder to cry on!!! You really see who your real friends in the bad times!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!! Thanks for the support I need it. I know you're all there for me, and I GREATLY appreciate it!!! And I'm there for you!!!
I'll be doing good for hours, then I'll just start balling. Everytime I close my eyes I see him or the caller ID with the time and his number and hear Karen's voice. I can't get it out of my head!!! One day I know I'll be able to look back and laugh at the memories I personally had with Bobby...and theres alot!! 10 years worth!! But right now I just want to cry. I was looking forward to seeing Bobby up there on the rock Saturday night and calling my name as a trail guide...ALL BY MYSELF!!! And I know he would had a comment about remembering when I was an ankle biting lil brat!!! I needed to hear him call me a trail guide and tell me good job. He was the one I've been working my ass off to impress for the last 7 years, and now I'll never get to hear him call me one of his trail guides!!! He'll never get to see what I've leaarned over the past 7 years!!! NO one knows how much this hurts to me. I dont want to sound selfish. No one understands what the Jeep Jamboree means to me...and Bobby was a BIG part of the Jamboree. My dad said Bobby said alot of good thigns about me...but I'll never get to hear Bobby tell me!!
It prolly seams like I'm going on & on. But I just need to talk and vent and cry and try to understand things. I just can't believe it. Saturday night we all just jokin & drinkin and talking about the JeepJam and 2 days later...everyting has changed!! I was so excited about this years JeepJam...and now I'll prolly cry through most of it. How can I go up there and have a good time knowin the reason for that Jeep Jam is dead?? My trail guide intiation will never be complete. Bobby was the one last year who gave my the water at dinner Saturday night when I overheated. All the blonde jokes...all the 'heather' jokes...all the jokes in general I'll miss.
[] IIIIIII [] Jeep In Peace Bobby!!! (Real Jeeps have Square Headlights - even Cj's!!)