bored
well im sittin here at julias apartment smokin a lil and yeah...
I hate that it had to be that way...
but i cant say anything...
cause since you didnt want to even hear what i had say...
maybe it wasnt worth me trying to be with you again...
not saying that i regreted trying the last time...
i actually dont regret anything that we did...
but what i do regret...
is not being what you needed at the time...
sorry for not being more exciting...
i wish that i could have pulled you outta that house...
to take you out...
i wish i woulda had more money...
i just wish i coulda been more of what you wanted...
im sorry...
i really am...
and i do want you to know...
and just for the record...
i didnt use that to get back with you...
and what i had said to him...
was actually a question asking what he thought...
but it got twisted of course...
everything that tended to happen out there got twisted...
and for what HE told you...
im not fucking disgusting...
im not nasty...
and i thought that maybe what you meant to me woulda been more than what he had to say...
but i guess i was wrong...
i hate the fact that you would do what he said...
and when he said that...
you made up your mind that we wouldnt go anywhere...
god..
i hate this is how its gotta be..
and i wish i could change what i didnt do...
or whatever i got wrong...
god..
im so high...
i think i might give danay a call and see what she is doing...
o well shit happens and then you die...
good show last night...
wish i woulda seen more people that knew...
drag makes me tired...
made very lil money last night...
wish my career could just take off...
o well i know it takes time...
♥...
I hate that it had to be that way...
but i cant say anything...
cause since you didnt want to even hear what i had say...
maybe it wasnt worth me trying to be with you again...
not saying that i regreted trying the last time...
i actually dont regret anything that we did...
but what i do regret...
is not being what you needed at the time...
sorry for not being more exciting...
i wish that i could have pulled you outta that house...
to take you out...
i wish i woulda had more money...
i just wish i coulda been more of what you wanted...
im sorry...
i really am...
and i do want you to know...
and just for the record...
i didnt use that to get back with you...
and what i had said to him...
was actually a question asking what he thought...
but it got twisted of course...
everything that tended to happen out there got twisted...
and for what HE told you...
im not fucking disgusting...
im not nasty...
and i thought that maybe what you meant to me woulda been more than what he had to say...
but i guess i was wrong...
i hate the fact that you would do what he said...
and when he said that...
you made up your mind that we wouldnt go anywhere...
god..
i hate this is how its gotta be..
and i wish i could change what i didnt do...
or whatever i got wrong...
god..
im so high...
i think i might give danay a call and see what she is doing...
o well shit happens and then you die...
good show last night...
wish i woulda seen more people that knew...
drag makes me tired...
made very lil money last night...
wish my career could just take off...
o well i know it takes time...
♥...