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okay if anyone is friends with josh on myspace then yall have gotten or seen the bulletins that he has posted about me...i really do think that it is childish on his part and i dont understand why he cant seem to grow up...i mean really...why would someone post something like that...if yall havent read it...lemme know and ill send it to yall...wait wait wait...ill jus copy and paste real fast...brb...
As a lot of you know, I was having a hard time with a recent breakup. I really got hurt more than this person realizes, but I realized that if one fight was all it took to break us up, then it'd never work. This person told me that it was MY fault "for flying off the deep end over something so childish". How many of you would consider getting very upset at the person you love more than anyone else in the world sitting in your apartment ignoring you while tallking to other guys on the computer on a certain website over reacting or "childish"? Didn't think many of you would. But, it's ok. Like i said. I've realized it wouldn't work anyway.
Well aparently what we had didn't matter to this person very much, because this person's already seeing someone else.........hmn. Kinda convienient right? Yeah, I thought so too. Well, it just so happens that a major part of this persons time is consumed by a certain local bar that emphesizes a certain other aspect of this other person's life. I just think it's a little too perfect for that to happen, right? Yeah. But that's ok too. It's not going to last if it's all based on that. And this person will NEVER have a good relationship with ANYONE as long as this person doesn't realize there's more to life than what this person thinks there is, which would be that certain aspect of this person's life that seems to be taking over. And BTW, this person needs a lot more practice before this person gets a big head like one of his other friends has. Neither of them are great, but both think they are. I'm not saying they're not decent, but not NEAR as good as either believe they are. ANYWAY!
And I guess to make things worse, I believe this person has gone and told another person that i was trying to break their relationship up. This person confronted me at the club the other night while walking with my now ex and new........thing. Not really sure what they are. I had to defend myself against a lie because this person decided to run their mouth and not get the story straight before doing so.
So, to make a LONG post SHORT. I'm over this person. I never want to see or speak to this person again for the rest of my life. Not because I'm trying to be a bitch, but because there's not room in my life for anyone that's just going to take time away from the people that treat me decently. I've also realized i don't really miss the person, I miss the relationship. I've got too much love to give and no one to give it to. It's sad, but true.
Anyway, I love you all and never will stop loving any of you, even the person that hurt me most of all. There will ALWAYS be a place in my heart for this person whether I want there to be or not.
Love you all
Joshie
okay so you know that all of my friends down here of course had something to say especially all of my close friends...which it wasnt too nice...this is the first thing ive said about this whole situation...but neway...
then there was another post today...hold on lemme get that one...
Hey guys. Just wanted to say I love you all. And to all of you that sent messages to me about my last bulletin.......thanks if it was supportive........and if it wasn't..........and you know who you are......you don't have the WHOLE story I'm sure. But if that's still the way you feel about everything that's fine. I just think it's kinda funny how i got all those messages from people calling me childish who are being childish themselves with the messages.
And the the two of you that DID send those messages, heres what i have to say. Love doesn't have a time table. Just because you're only with someone a certain amount of time doesn't mean you can't love that person. I thought you of all people would know that. And to the other. NONE of the remarks that were made in that message were called for. That was just a sad attempt at being cruel. AND FYI. It didn't work. We laughed.
Thanks for being supportive. love you all. ttyl.
Joshie
but this is gonna be a two part post so i will return shortly after these messages....
As a lot of you know, I was having a hard time with a recent breakup. I really got hurt more than this person realizes, but I realized that if one fight was all it took to break us up, then it'd never work. This person told me that it was MY fault "for flying off the deep end over something so childish". How many of you would consider getting very upset at the person you love more than anyone else in the world sitting in your apartment ignoring you while tallking to other guys on the computer on a certain website over reacting or "childish"? Didn't think many of you would. But, it's ok. Like i said. I've realized it wouldn't work anyway.
Well aparently what we had didn't matter to this person very much, because this person's already seeing someone else.........hmn. Kinda convienient right? Yeah, I thought so too. Well, it just so happens that a major part of this persons time is consumed by a certain local bar that emphesizes a certain other aspect of this other person's life. I just think it's a little too perfect for that to happen, right? Yeah. But that's ok too. It's not going to last if it's all based on that. And this person will NEVER have a good relationship with ANYONE as long as this person doesn't realize there's more to life than what this person thinks there is, which would be that certain aspect of this person's life that seems to be taking over. And BTW, this person needs a lot more practice before this person gets a big head like one of his other friends has. Neither of them are great, but both think they are. I'm not saying they're not decent, but not NEAR as good as either believe they are. ANYWAY!
And I guess to make things worse, I believe this person has gone and told another person that i was trying to break their relationship up. This person confronted me at the club the other night while walking with my now ex and new........thing. Not really sure what they are. I had to defend myself against a lie because this person decided to run their mouth and not get the story straight before doing so.
So, to make a LONG post SHORT. I'm over this person. I never want to see or speak to this person again for the rest of my life. Not because I'm trying to be a bitch, but because there's not room in my life for anyone that's just going to take time away from the people that treat me decently. I've also realized i don't really miss the person, I miss the relationship. I've got too much love to give and no one to give it to. It's sad, but true.
Anyway, I love you all and never will stop loving any of you, even the person that hurt me most of all. There will ALWAYS be a place in my heart for this person whether I want there to be or not.
Love you all
Joshie
okay so you know that all of my friends down here of course had something to say especially all of my close friends...which it wasnt too nice...this is the first thing ive said about this whole situation...but neway...
then there was another post today...hold on lemme get that one...
Hey guys. Just wanted to say I love you all. And to all of you that sent messages to me about my last bulletin.......thanks if it was supportive........and if it wasn't..........and you know who you are......you don't have the WHOLE story I'm sure. But if that's still the way you feel about everything that's fine. I just think it's kinda funny how i got all those messages from people calling me childish who are being childish themselves with the messages.
And the the two of you that DID send those messages, heres what i have to say. Love doesn't have a time table. Just because you're only with someone a certain amount of time doesn't mean you can't love that person. I thought you of all people would know that. And to the other. NONE of the remarks that were made in that message were called for. That was just a sad attempt at being cruel. AND FYI. It didn't work. We laughed.
Thanks for being supportive. love you all. ttyl.
Joshie
but this is gonna be a two part post so i will return shortly after these messages....