Thinking While On Vacation
You ever looked into a mirror and you did't like what you saw starring back at you? In my case, it would say about a feed-sack worth. "I.E. 50lbs." Yes I need to loose the weight, and I will talk more about it later. Also, I don't know how to do a cut, so don't start the whining because thre isn't one.
Well my vacation is about half way over, and so far it's been one of those where I just had to get away from it all to do some thinking about my life on what I have accomplish, what needs to be done, and where's it going. I till also be talking about the can'ts vs don' t want toos.
I will admit that I have done many things threw out my life, but I really haven't accomplished much. Then again maybe I'm just viewing it all wrong because of believes that was brainwash in my head along with so many others out there on that one is a flop if they don't make it threw college, and land a good paying 9 to 5 career-job that they might have studied hard for. As you know, it takes lost of money, time and support to make it threw college. For the wealthy, they can give there kids all the money and time in the world, but some times the support isn't aways there. For the working class, they might have the support, but they usually lack the money, and have the time needed to make it happen. What I mean by that, is most likely they will be having to work a full time job to get by, and many times they need the money so badly that they just don't have that extra time, and spare money to do it. Then one as a poor person might get the support of "I did't need college. I did just fine working on an assembly-line so it should be good enough for you. College is for rah-rahs."
In my case, I was a slow reader, and basically from being a slow reader, that usually makes one a slow learner. That also ment my grades weren't the greatest. I also have AADD, what I like to joke around and call HDTV, and it usually gets a laugh. No I don't take any meds for it, nor do I want to. I did in the past, but when I was on them, I was not that of a clear mind, and there were those who took advantage of it. The worst part is that the med mixed with beer caused me to gain weight badly. I have lost some but I still have a feed-sack worth that I want to loose.
While I was packing for my trip, I found a package that was tucked deep away in my carry on bag that was filled with a lot of my originals. What's interesting is that they have been there for over six years. I got to looking at them, and then looking at some of my more resent stuff, and started deeply analyzing them, and then wondering how I can improve my quality of what I draw. I'm one of those who believes that an artist should always should look for room to improve. I don't want to look at something that looks the same for the past 20 years. One of the things that I did spot with my stuff, s that I need to spend more time with the construction, and to put more feeling into my images.
The other thing about that package being there, is that it makes me wonder if it was hidden by someone who just doesn't want me to draw anymore. I dough that's really the case, but there are a few who feels that I should be doing other things with my life then drawing furry art. One of them was some who I used to see a while back, yet it was my are that formed the relationship. The scoop is that I like to draw the furry stuff because it's a way for me to unwind.
Now one of the things that I did do with my life that i found a little bit disturbing was the fact that I let my weight get a little bit out of control. I hit that 290 mark until I realized that I needed to do something. It was one of the reasons why I gave up drinking, but after starting off on this trip, I realized that at 260, I was still a long ways off when I couldn't put the seat tray on the airplane down, and after seeing my self in a full view mirror that was hanging in my friends bathroom. My stomac looked like something that should go into the oven for Thanksgiving. Not only that, when visiting a mall in California, and not finding a shirt over 2xl, it was another sign that I still have ways to go. What ever the case is, I just need to loose more weight.
So my goals are to loose more weight, do better for my self, and to improve on my art. I also need to quit to stop using can't as an excuse for the don't want toos.
Well my vacation is about half way over, and so far it's been one of those where I just had to get away from it all to do some thinking about my life on what I have accomplish, what needs to be done, and where's it going. I till also be talking about the can'ts vs don' t want toos.
I will admit that I have done many things threw out my life, but I really haven't accomplished much. Then again maybe I'm just viewing it all wrong because of believes that was brainwash in my head along with so many others out there on that one is a flop if they don't make it threw college, and land a good paying 9 to 5 career-job that they might have studied hard for. As you know, it takes lost of money, time and support to make it threw college. For the wealthy, they can give there kids all the money and time in the world, but some times the support isn't aways there. For the working class, they might have the support, but they usually lack the money, and have the time needed to make it happen. What I mean by that, is most likely they will be having to work a full time job to get by, and many times they need the money so badly that they just don't have that extra time, and spare money to do it. Then one as a poor person might get the support of "I did't need college. I did just fine working on an assembly-line so it should be good enough for you. College is for rah-rahs."
In my case, I was a slow reader, and basically from being a slow reader, that usually makes one a slow learner. That also ment my grades weren't the greatest. I also have AADD, what I like to joke around and call HDTV, and it usually gets a laugh. No I don't take any meds for it, nor do I want to. I did in the past, but when I was on them, I was not that of a clear mind, and there were those who took advantage of it. The worst part is that the med mixed with beer caused me to gain weight badly. I have lost some but I still have a feed-sack worth that I want to loose.
While I was packing for my trip, I found a package that was tucked deep away in my carry on bag that was filled with a lot of my originals. What's interesting is that they have been there for over six years. I got to looking at them, and then looking at some of my more resent stuff, and started deeply analyzing them, and then wondering how I can improve my quality of what I draw. I'm one of those who believes that an artist should always should look for room to improve. I don't want to look at something that looks the same for the past 20 years. One of the things that I did spot with my stuff, s that I need to spend more time with the construction, and to put more feeling into my images.
The other thing about that package being there, is that it makes me wonder if it was hidden by someone who just doesn't want me to draw anymore. I dough that's really the case, but there are a few who feels that I should be doing other things with my life then drawing furry art. One of them was some who I used to see a while back, yet it was my are that formed the relationship. The scoop is that I like to draw the furry stuff because it's a way for me to unwind.
Now one of the things that I did do with my life that i found a little bit disturbing was the fact that I let my weight get a little bit out of control. I hit that 290 mark until I realized that I needed to do something. It was one of the reasons why I gave up drinking, but after starting off on this trip, I realized that at 260, I was still a long ways off when I couldn't put the seat tray on the airplane down, and after seeing my self in a full view mirror that was hanging in my friends bathroom. My stomac looked like something that should go into the oven for Thanksgiving. Not only that, when visiting a mall in California, and not finding a shirt over 2xl, it was another sign that I still have ways to go. What ever the case is, I just need to loose more weight.
So my goals are to loose more weight, do better for my self, and to improve on my art. I also need to quit to stop using can't as an excuse for the don't want toos.