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I actually feel like crying. I really didn't think I'd be this upset.
I'm alone, here in the dorm, on a Friday night (not to mention Cinco de Mayo), because the roommate left and the suitemates went to the crawfish boil in Birmingham. Everyone else is studying for their finals tomorrow and I don't have another one until Monday, therefore...not studying.
I refuse to look at my Physics grade until I'm certain all my other grades are posted. I'd rather ruin one day rather than 5. Yeah it makes sense in my head.
Anyway, I helped Flan pack up today. She wanted me to organize her stuff and put them into boxes. It wasn't until around 6:00 when I realized what was actually happening...we're leaving and I won't see her for several months. It's a terrible thing to go from seeing someone everyday to probably not even talking to them. I know it's just a summer, but I've had the time of my life with all of them and especially Flan. I'm going to miss the way things are, her living with Mandi and Lindsey, me with Sam, Lauren, and Audrey. It'll be so different. And I probably won't see Flan until August. I know she's from Lilburn and she says that we'll hang out, but I'll believe that when it happens. I didn't want to let go when we hugged. Today was amazing and I can't remember a time I was this happy and sad at the same time. I walked to the car slowly and then their apartment door opened and she appeared. I thought she was going to tell me to come back and hang out, even though they have finals tomorrow, but she just simply said, "do you want your phone charger?" Humph...
I'm actually kind of glad I'm alone right now, that way, noone can see how much my heart actually hurts right now. All of Sam's stuff is moved out and the room is empty and it echos. What an annoying sound. I've never realized how unhomey it feels without someone here. I feel like I'm in a jail cell. Yesterday I wanted to walk into on-coming traffic and today all I want to do is spend as much time I can with people here, but of course...they are studying. I wish I had something to study. Wow, I just contridicted myself BIG time.
Oh well, going home will be good. Yes? I'm moving back June 24th or so for summer classes. Ah, sweet Auburn.
I'm alone, here in the dorm, on a Friday night (not to mention Cinco de Mayo), because the roommate left and the suitemates went to the crawfish boil in Birmingham. Everyone else is studying for their finals tomorrow and I don't have another one until Monday, therefore...not studying.
I refuse to look at my Physics grade until I'm certain all my other grades are posted. I'd rather ruin one day rather than 5. Yeah it makes sense in my head.
Anyway, I helped Flan pack up today. She wanted me to organize her stuff and put them into boxes. It wasn't until around 6:00 when I realized what was actually happening...we're leaving and I won't see her for several months. It's a terrible thing to go from seeing someone everyday to probably not even talking to them. I know it's just a summer, but I've had the time of my life with all of them and especially Flan. I'm going to miss the way things are, her living with Mandi and Lindsey, me with Sam, Lauren, and Audrey. It'll be so different. And I probably won't see Flan until August. I know she's from Lilburn and she says that we'll hang out, but I'll believe that when it happens. I didn't want to let go when we hugged. Today was amazing and I can't remember a time I was this happy and sad at the same time. I walked to the car slowly and then their apartment door opened and she appeared. I thought she was going to tell me to come back and hang out, even though they have finals tomorrow, but she just simply said, "do you want your phone charger?" Humph...
I'm actually kind of glad I'm alone right now, that way, noone can see how much my heart actually hurts right now. All of Sam's stuff is moved out and the room is empty and it echos. What an annoying sound. I've never realized how unhomey it feels without someone here. I feel like I'm in a jail cell. Yesterday I wanted to walk into on-coming traffic and today all I want to do is spend as much time I can with people here, but of course...they are studying. I wish I had something to study. Wow, I just contridicted myself BIG time.
Oh well, going home will be good. Yes? I'm moving back June 24th or so for summer classes. Ah, sweet Auburn.