another month passes, the days grow shorter.
Hmph.
I dont know what mood im in now. I wish "off balance" made you understand me, and my situations completely. I just feel like I've been given the sharpest push. And when I need words, they wont come. They sit in my head making me know my feelings but they are so fantastic and wonderful that they only make me smile. and sadly enough smiles cant be heard over the phone.
Its literally frustrating to know something this great, and not be albe to fully explain it when needed.
Its paralyzing you know, being so overwhelmed with feeling. But I dont know I guess I dont show it as well as I thought I did. Its like running a sprint, and halfway through actually trying to comprehend the actual act of running, how does it ACTUALLY happen. You know it too well, too well at that point to actually think before doing it. I guess thats love for you though lol, dont think just love. Love hard and with your all.
I just thought I knew myself better. But in the end, I dont....I really dont Know shit.
But What I feel is mine, and I wish I could give it to you, Because then you wouldnt worry, and to be honest I'd sleep better with YOUR mind at ease Love. I know I felt...it, at the races, On the steps, On the swing, In the car, on the couch, at the restaraunt, at javas, in the park, on the sidewalks, in the elevator, in the garage, On the bench, in the grass, in the practice rooms, In the halls, in our classes, at the games, at the movies, at the play, in your room, in the CD's in the pool, at the prom, at the ball, on the bridge, near the window, under the blanket, watching the stars, IN my dreams. the list goes on, and the fact remains: I felt it then. I Still feel it now. Please see it.
Who did I call when I felt like complete shit anfter the dentist and was gonna fail the physics final?
Who did I want then?
Who did I need then?
You.
So no ellipses love.
"We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but, for for the first time let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is that we are."
"You gotta hear this one song, it'll change your life I swear"
- And It did that night.
" This is your one opportunity to do something that no one has ever done before and that no one will copy throughout human existence. And if nothing else, you will be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. This one thing."
That quote is your answer to what I asked in the Parking garage.
your songs almost finished.