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I adopted a cute lil' giraffe fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
I have noticed lately,with the much addition to my life of emo people, how very unemolike I really am. I'm not deep like they are. I don't take my problems with me and ponder about them every moment, which isn't a bad thing, but I prefer to forget them for a little while. Maybe thats bad? Or preppy. Hmm... I also fit in at Cave 9. I enjoy that part so much, but last week, half of the school I hated and went to was there and they all looked at me like they did as I walked down the halls. Like I was the biggest snob in the world. Who knows? Maybe I was to them. I always tried to be nice to everyone and never listened to stupid gay rumours that went around. However, I have come to find that they all thought I left because I was pregnant. In one aspect I got a kick out of that b/c its such a foolish thought, but then again, I was offended by it b/c it IS such a foolish thought. All that I stood for there and thats what people made of me. It kind of hurts. I tried to be what I felt God wanted me to be, and I leave a slutbag. Nice.
I've been slightly depressed lately. Its hard to make myself go places. I do it, but in the back of my mind I have the thoughts to just stay at home and sleep. I need to back to therapy again. Too much is coming back to mind that I HAVE to forget.
My 7 year old cousin is here for the night. She is the biggest smarta--. She told me I freaked her out b/c I was dancing to some music and singing along to what was playing on my computer and pretty much thinks I'm a complete idiot. I want to hurt her. However, if I stay away and be a "good little girl" my parents might let me go out later tonight for a small wedding party. I don't know if I can stay here much longer. She is freakin' 7 YEARS OLD!!!!
Please please pray for me. I need some guidence about so many things. Call me. 213-0769.
Always.