trapped.....
Things have seemed a little strange the last few days. Old feelings coming around. New interests from out of the blue have been confusing my mind. I really just want to get away from a day or two just to kinda clear my head out. Can't seem to choose weather to go alone or not. I want to see the ocean and the rocks. It's been so long since I've seen or smelt or heard real ocean. It would be nice to have company but at the same time I'm not sure I want it. Maybe this one will be just me and chance. It's hard fighting back the urge to chase a flame. I'm not sure I'm ment for this right now. Being a good man sometimes just isn't any good at all. Well in terms of what I think I want. I want more friends to go out with, and for things like an ocean trip. I really don't want to work anymore. Life seems to trap me and hold me down. I know it's because I let my fears take control of my actions. My fears are more like a reaction to life's path. I want so badly to change and feel like sometimes I'm stepping forward and out but just not in strides. Baby steps are all I can seem to muster no matter how hard I try. I need to find a free spirit to try and help push me the rest of the way out the door and into the world. The world is bigger than tacoma and I think that's what scares me.