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[bucko083]

i'm a weird kid.

Good things about me
-generally a good friend
-funny
-work hard
-care
-try to help everywhere i can
-i have dreams
-i take care of myself
-i have a job
-i have great people around me

Things that are not so good about me
-rude
-lazy at home
-don't know what to do with my life
-scared of the future
-stuck on someone i know i can never have again
-still live in high school
-can't figure out what i need
-have no direction
-i'm a liar
-i don't live life to the fullest as much as i say i do
-have no idea how to make any decisions that affect my life
-don't know what to look for or what i want in a significant other
-i'm judgmental
-i treat a lot of people differently

i want to believe that in general i'm a good person. most days i can convince myself i am. but others i'm not so sure. it's hard to wake up with a weary heart and wilting faith