The Malkerns look human expect for their eyes which are purple. All of them, purples eyes. They are also empaths and their home world is rich in dilithum. Three weeks ago the Enterprise had been sent to Malkern to help in their entrance into the Federation.
Three weeks ago an extremist had tried to murder their queen before she could sign them into the Federation. Jim Kirk had pushed her out of the way.
Bones hadn’t been there. He had been on the ship but had come down because Jim needed him and he was the CMO. He remembers this now. Why were they back?
This time they transport into the main receiving hall, they have an audience.
Bones feels the buzzing again, so bad that he drops to his knee in front of the crowd that seems to have been expecting them.
“What did you do to him?” It’s Jim who asks, or yells, to the queen. She hardly seems surprised that they’re there.
“ Your One, is he not better?”
“Better?”
“ More able to continue? Was this not what you wanted?” She asks him.
“What I wanted? This is not what I wanted! He’s seeing his dea- he’s hallucinating for shit’s sake. You did this, you fix it.”
Bones can’t see anymore through the fog is his brain. He’s so confused that the finally understands, the buzzing in his body has reached new levels.
The queen walks over to him and puts a cool hand on his face and smiles. Her eyes aren’t purple anymore, they’re gray. She’s Joanna, his baby girl, right there in front of him and he remembers.
Four months before their original mission to Malkern Bones stopped eating. His hands shook, he stopped being CMO. He tried to stop being, loaded the hypos. Jim had found him first on the floor of their bathroom. He remembers holding him while he sobbed, he remembers sleeping on the floor because he couldn’t sleep with Jim but had to be near him. Everything had to hurt a little, he needed the hard floor.
He ripped every picture off the wall of their quarters.
He only beamed down to the planet that day because he couldn’t loose Jim too. He didn’t care about any dam queen but she cared about him. She gave him what he wanted the most. The chance to see Joanna. She just messed it up a bit. Didn’t understand that humans don’t live the same way that they did on Malkern. That everyone always saw the same thing, except for when they didn‘t. That for a person to exist they had to exist for everyone.
“It’s ok daddy.” Joanna says putting her hands on his face.
Bones hurts everywhere. He’s seeing his daughter who died four months ago on an alien planet. He’s seeing her so he must be crazy. He’s seeing her so why would he want to be sane?
“Please don’t leave me Bones, you promised.” It’s Jim again. He’s so tired, they both are. Always so tired.
“Please.” Jim Jim Jim.
“Goodbye.” Bones says closing his eyes and embracing the darkness.
I love the ambiguous ending. Like it could be Bones dying, but I'm taking it as him saying goodbye to Joanna and the darkness is the world without her.
Wow, I just loved this! It's so heartbreaking, I had to hold back the tears while I was reading. And I love the ending, the way you left it open to interpretation. It's like he's having to choose between the madness of keeping Joanna alive and Jim. I like to think he chose Jim but it could go either way really. This was just so sad.
Thank you for filling this! It's everything I wanted and more!
Re: OP Here!pearlstar178July 20 2010, 22:18:23 UTC
I really glad you liked ! I was worried that maybe I didn't fill it the way you wanted. I'm glad you liked the ending. Thank you for the lovely prompt!
Re: Filled 3/3bandearg_roisOctober 5 2010, 23:10:39 UTC
I have been on the verge of tears since I started reading this, because I have been imagining my 4 year old as Joanna and the only reason i'm not crying is because there are kids around who would look at me weird...
Three weeks ago an extremist had tried to murder their queen before she could sign them into the Federation. Jim Kirk had pushed her out of the way.
Bones hadn’t been there. He had been on the ship but had come down because Jim needed him and he was the CMO. He remembers this now. Why were they back?
This time they transport into the main receiving hall, they have an audience.
Bones feels the buzzing again, so bad that he drops to his knee in front of the crowd that seems to have been expecting them.
“What did you do to him?” It’s Jim who asks, or yells, to the queen. She hardly seems surprised that they’re there.
“ Your One, is he not better?”
“Better?”
“ More able to continue? Was this not what you wanted?” She asks him.
“What I wanted? This is not what I wanted! He’s seeing his dea- he’s hallucinating for shit’s sake. You did this, you fix it.”
Bones can’t see anymore through the fog is his brain. He’s so confused that the finally understands, the buzzing in his body has reached new levels.
The queen walks over to him and puts a cool hand on his face and smiles. Her eyes aren’t purple anymore, they’re gray. She’s Joanna, his baby girl, right there in front of him and he remembers.
Four months before their original mission to Malkern Bones stopped eating. His hands shook, he stopped being CMO. He tried to stop being, loaded the hypos. Jim had found him first on the floor of their bathroom. He remembers holding him while he sobbed, he remembers sleeping on the floor because he couldn’t sleep with Jim but had to be near him. Everything had to hurt a little, he needed the hard floor.
He ripped every picture off the wall of their quarters.
He only beamed down to the planet that day because he couldn’t loose Jim too. He didn’t care about any dam queen but she cared about him. She gave him what he wanted the most. The chance to see Joanna. She just messed it up a bit. Didn’t understand that humans don’t live the same way that they did on Malkern. That everyone always saw the same thing, except for when they didn‘t. That for a person to exist they had to exist for everyone.
“It’s ok daddy.” Joanna says putting her hands on his face.
Bones hurts everywhere. He’s seeing his daughter who died four months ago on an alien planet. He’s seeing her so he must be crazy. He’s seeing her so why would he want to be sane?
“Please don’t leave me Bones, you promised.” It’s Jim again. He’s so tired, they both are. Always so tired.
“Please.” Jim Jim Jim.
“Goodbye.” Bones says closing his eyes and embracing the darkness.
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I love the ambiguous ending. Like it could be Bones dying, but I'm taking it as him saying goodbye to Joanna and the darkness is the world without her.
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BRB. Sobbing hysterically.
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** hands you a tissue***
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Thank you for filling this! It's everything I wanted and more!
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I love you?
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