Regardless of the birthday...
Dear Journal,
I really know how to mess up my body chemistry.
My evidence is from early this week when I pretty much hated everything and everyone.
Yikes.
I need to be more careful about this gaining weight thing...and not putting anything that isn't found in nature into my body.
Again birthday this weekend...ugh...people keep asking.
Jess and T want to do dinner.
The Rachel's want a birthday tailgate.
I really don't want to have to travel for my own birthday but I seriously doubt anyone wants to come to Ann Arbor for my birthday.
Inconsistencies and such...
We'll see I guess.
The thing is...I feel like I plan a lot for a lot of people (i.e. birthday parties: Meg's; parties in general: drinking games, st. patty's day, new years, halloween, etc.; and just going out on a weekly basis: house parties, getting people together for the bar, etc.)
And I'm not against the whole planning, not at all, I really like it. Hahaha - I feel like a social coordinator.
I only wish that when it came to my birthday...well I wish I didn't have to plan it.
But that's the position I've put myself in - everyone expects me to plan it because I plan everything else.
Del Rio (my co-worker at Holcim - who is this amazing large black woman - and I wouldn't trade for anything in the world) reminded me that everyone is different, not everyone realizes the amount of work put in and not everyone is good at coordinating.
And she's right.
I can't expect other people to do what I like to do simply because I don't want to do it.
Besides no one except me would ever be able to coordinate all my friends.
Here's the unfortunate part - I don't have a place in East Lansing - so I can't throw a party. My under 21 friends can't drink at tailgate (well they can but I'd never want them to take that risk) and they can't go to the bar.
So it sucks but...that's it.
I'll throw myself a late birthday party in January when I'm back in EL.
Makes sense to me.
At the very least this isn't worth getting upset over. And I wouldn't want to be upset over something as small as this.
I really know how to mess up my body chemistry.
My evidence is from early this week when I pretty much hated everything and everyone.
Yikes.
I need to be more careful about this gaining weight thing...and not putting anything that isn't found in nature into my body.
Again birthday this weekend...ugh...people keep asking.
Jess and T want to do dinner.
The Rachel's want a birthday tailgate.
I really don't want to have to travel for my own birthday but I seriously doubt anyone wants to come to Ann Arbor for my birthday.
Inconsistencies and such...
We'll see I guess.
The thing is...I feel like I plan a lot for a lot of people (i.e. birthday parties: Meg's; parties in general: drinking games, st. patty's day, new years, halloween, etc.; and just going out on a weekly basis: house parties, getting people together for the bar, etc.)
And I'm not against the whole planning, not at all, I really like it. Hahaha - I feel like a social coordinator.
I only wish that when it came to my birthday...well I wish I didn't have to plan it.
But that's the position I've put myself in - everyone expects me to plan it because I plan everything else.
Del Rio (my co-worker at Holcim - who is this amazing large black woman - and I wouldn't trade for anything in the world) reminded me that everyone is different, not everyone realizes the amount of work put in and not everyone is good at coordinating.
And she's right.
I can't expect other people to do what I like to do simply because I don't want to do it.
Besides no one except me would ever be able to coordinate all my friends.
Here's the unfortunate part - I don't have a place in East Lansing - so I can't throw a party. My under 21 friends can't drink at tailgate (well they can but I'd never want them to take that risk) and they can't go to the bar.
So it sucks but...that's it.
I'll throw myself a late birthday party in January when I'm back in EL.
Makes sense to me.
At the very least this isn't worth getting upset over. And I wouldn't want to be upset over something as small as this.