EXHAUSTION
So I am really needing a break from everything.
I'm so exhausted. I try my best to be perfect in everything that I put my time into, and I always let myself down.
I don't understand why I'm not back to my prime yet!
I've been going to class more this semester than any semester I've been in college except my first semester (fall 03). I've been doing my homework and studying...I've been waiting until the last minute for some of my classes just because I feel overwhelmed by some of the material when I initially sit down to learn it.
I know I can't be as "perfect" as I was in high school, but damn...I wanna be that way again. This is the closest I've gotten since high school, and I know I have the potential to be just as awesome academically as I once was and really show people that I am smart!!!
*****
I dropped music! It was becoming way more difficult for me than Calc II, Physics, *and* Anatomy--ridiculous!!! I may take it again some day, but only time will tell. Two good things about this: I'm now done at 10:30 on Tuesdays/Thursdays and have more time to study AND I can finally start going to Lead Lab and Arnold Air meetings!!!
On a SW note, I'm terrified of elections--I don't want to be ripped to shreds!!! I feel like I've done a great deal of positive things in the organization, and I really hope that people see that I want to give back to the chapter, not just be on exec! :)
*****
I have to go home to work this weekend, and I'm also going home to work for Spring Break. I really don't want to do it, but I need the money so desperately right now that it's unreal. I'm just kind of upset that I have to work because I don't have as much time to study and won't be here to have any semblance of fun with any remote kind of friend.
*****
Speaking of friends, I've made peace with two very special, important people in my life with whom I feel I had been at odds recently, and it feels wonderful!!! YAY!!!
*****
At any rate, I'm exhausted. Bed time. Holler.
I'm so exhausted. I try my best to be perfect in everything that I put my time into, and I always let myself down.
I don't understand why I'm not back to my prime yet!
I've been going to class more this semester than any semester I've been in college except my first semester (fall 03). I've been doing my homework and studying...I've been waiting until the last minute for some of my classes just because I feel overwhelmed by some of the material when I initially sit down to learn it.
I know I can't be as "perfect" as I was in high school, but damn...I wanna be that way again. This is the closest I've gotten since high school, and I know I have the potential to be just as awesome academically as I once was and really show people that I am smart!!!
*****
I dropped music! It was becoming way more difficult for me than Calc II, Physics, *and* Anatomy--ridiculous!!! I may take it again some day, but only time will tell. Two good things about this: I'm now done at 10:30 on Tuesdays/Thursdays and have more time to study AND I can finally start going to Lead Lab and Arnold Air meetings!!!
On a SW note, I'm terrified of elections--I don't want to be ripped to shreds!!! I feel like I've done a great deal of positive things in the organization, and I really hope that people see that I want to give back to the chapter, not just be on exec! :)
*****
I have to go home to work this weekend, and I'm also going home to work for Spring Break. I really don't want to do it, but I need the money so desperately right now that it's unreal. I'm just kind of upset that I have to work because I don't have as much time to study and won't be here to have any semblance of fun with any remote kind of friend.
*****
Speaking of friends, I've made peace with two very special, important people in my life with whom I feel I had been at odds recently, and it feels wonderful!!! YAY!!!
*****
At any rate, I'm exhausted. Bed time. Holler.