The eye of a new self
2nd of May,
Sunny saturday,
Leaves growing,
A new philosophy blooming.
Now that the days cloistered in a dark bedroom, confronted from 8am to 0am to thousands of pages from various textbooks, are over (for the summer break at least!), I'm suddenly confronted to the real world. I'm in a kind of life where you get to mix with the same people all year long, living on the campus of a small university. Being done with this scholar year finally gives me the opportunity to go out and do other things than studying and partying with school friends, which is still great.
I'm beginning this amazing 4 months off in a totally different self than even a year ago. An uncertain future and a really troubled mind were my daily companions back then. What have changed in a single year is quite significant. Being accepted and having done a year in an incredible domain (which is being kept secret, for reasons of anonymity) gave life to numerous projects, ambitions and, particularly, possibilities. As if this wasn't enough, a whole new world is blooming before my eyes. Having accepted my homosexuality let me take a totally different look on many aspects of my life.
It's amazing how much a person's mind can grow in just some months. The more I think about it, the more I feel that's what I want. And now, what I've never allowed myself to do before seems really normal today. I've never watched a movie, taking so much attention to how sexy this actor can be. I really don't know why, but these changes, only waiting for me to vanquish my fear and doubts, are what I'm eagerly looking forward to.
What's coming next? I just can't wait to see (and live it... and write it to you guys, if you're still interested).