I can't sleep!
I went to bed at 1:30AM
Woke up at 4AM. And I haven't been able to sleep since.
I mean it's not one of those bad I can't fall asleep feelings. I don't really like to sleep a lot anymore. I love the feeling of sleep. But I always find myself wanting to be awake and doing things, which is totally a good thing.
HOWEVER, when I'm tired and I actually want to sleep my mind is racing with all of these things I want to do (and there are a lot of things). To name a few:
I love making clothes, but I am sometimes too impatient to sew them and put them together.
I want to travel all over the entire world but I have to get myself back on a plane again (its been a while). There is also not enough time to do all the traveling I want to right now! I try to do my best with living each day, but also with some reasonable guidelines so I can make a living for myself one day.
I am fascinated by Sharks and always thought it would be cool to study them up close and personal. Along with other animals and interesting creatures.
I've also always been fascinated by tornadoes. I always thought it would be fun to be a storm chaser and learn all about them and see and experience them first hand.
I would love to be an architect and uncover amazing things.
I want to study dinosaurs.
I want to be a teacher and work with really little kids. They have the best imaginations and such free spirits.
I want to be on Broadway and live in New York and experience city life. Meeting tons of fascinating people and having a nice little apartment where I can just step out of and run right down to work or rehearsal, and of course go shopping.
I want to be rich for the simple fact that I would be able to buy my parents a fantastic house in Lancaster, and they wouldn't have to work as hard as they do. And then I can also give money away to charitys and funds of my choice like Oprah and Ellen do (and I'm not just saying that for the sake of looking nice. I don't have anybody to impress via myspace. It is how I honestly feel)
I want to go down south and help rebuild homes lost from the hurricane. Talk to people who are living through it and aid in putting their lives back together.
I want hair extentions.
I want to start selling stuff on eBay.
I want a house on the beach where I can wake up every day, step out of the house and feel like I'm on vacation.
I want to settle down in Boston one day. After all of my traveling and excitement is over of course.
I want to love whatever career I have one day. I want to be able to wake up every morning so excited because I am going to work. I want to be so excited and enthusiastic about life that I only sleep because it is physically necessary for me to do so like I do now. As I said, I like sleep, but I'd much rather be awake and doing things, experiencing life and having fun.
Like right now, It's 6:30 AM now that I'm beginning to finish this blog up, and I want to be up for the day! But I know that if I don't get a few more hours of sleep I'll be tired at work and sleep against my will during the day (which I HATE sleeping during the day. I'm one of those ppl who sets their alarm clocks for 9am during the summer just so I don't waste the day).
As soon as I get up (if I ever infact get to sleep) I am going to call Ken and Company (Miss Kristina's place of employment!) and ask about hair extentions.
Also, among my early morning ventures, I was watching TV and there is one of those phonathons for a childrens hospital that I want to give money to. But I don't have a credit card so I have to wait until my parents wake up so I can use theirs and pay them back.
I want to spoil myself. But not be selfish either. Which I feel is a very healthy balance. I genuinly want both of those things. I don't want to completely be self centered, but I don't want to forget about myself either.
I realize to those reading this, it seems like there are two completely different people writing this. There is the one charitable, hospitable, giving side who wants to help hurrican victims and childrens hospitals. Then there is the other side who wants hair extentions and to live in New York and Boston (which I realize is an odd combo...for you baseball fans out there)
But all of it is true. I want to do so many things and enjoy every single second of every day. I want to have so many things but give an incredible amount at the same time.
But unless I get some sleep sometime soon, it is going to be a lot more difficult to get all of this stuff done =)
So to the rest of the world, Good morning.
As for me, however,
Good night =)
Woke up at 4AM. And I haven't been able to sleep since.
I mean it's not one of those bad I can't fall asleep feelings. I don't really like to sleep a lot anymore. I love the feeling of sleep. But I always find myself wanting to be awake and doing things, which is totally a good thing.
HOWEVER, when I'm tired and I actually want to sleep my mind is racing with all of these things I want to do (and there are a lot of things). To name a few:
I love making clothes, but I am sometimes too impatient to sew them and put them together.
I want to travel all over the entire world but I have to get myself back on a plane again (its been a while). There is also not enough time to do all the traveling I want to right now! I try to do my best with living each day, but also with some reasonable guidelines so I can make a living for myself one day.
I am fascinated by Sharks and always thought it would be cool to study them up close and personal. Along with other animals and interesting creatures.
I've also always been fascinated by tornadoes. I always thought it would be fun to be a storm chaser and learn all about them and see and experience them first hand.
I would love to be an architect and uncover amazing things.
I want to study dinosaurs.
I want to be a teacher and work with really little kids. They have the best imaginations and such free spirits.
I want to be on Broadway and live in New York and experience city life. Meeting tons of fascinating people and having a nice little apartment where I can just step out of and run right down to work or rehearsal, and of course go shopping.
I want to be rich for the simple fact that I would be able to buy my parents a fantastic house in Lancaster, and they wouldn't have to work as hard as they do. And then I can also give money away to charitys and funds of my choice like Oprah and Ellen do (and I'm not just saying that for the sake of looking nice. I don't have anybody to impress via myspace. It is how I honestly feel)
I want to go down south and help rebuild homes lost from the hurricane. Talk to people who are living through it and aid in putting their lives back together.
I want hair extentions.
I want to start selling stuff on eBay.
I want a house on the beach where I can wake up every day, step out of the house and feel like I'm on vacation.
I want to settle down in Boston one day. After all of my traveling and excitement is over of course.
I want to love whatever career I have one day. I want to be able to wake up every morning so excited because I am going to work. I want to be so excited and enthusiastic about life that I only sleep because it is physically necessary for me to do so like I do now. As I said, I like sleep, but I'd much rather be awake and doing things, experiencing life and having fun.
Like right now, It's 6:30 AM now that I'm beginning to finish this blog up, and I want to be up for the day! But I know that if I don't get a few more hours of sleep I'll be tired at work and sleep against my will during the day (which I HATE sleeping during the day. I'm one of those ppl who sets their alarm clocks for 9am during the summer just so I don't waste the day).
As soon as I get up (if I ever infact get to sleep) I am going to call Ken and Company (Miss Kristina's place of employment!) and ask about hair extentions.
Also, among my early morning ventures, I was watching TV and there is one of those phonathons for a childrens hospital that I want to give money to. But I don't have a credit card so I have to wait until my parents wake up so I can use theirs and pay them back.
I want to spoil myself. But not be selfish either. Which I feel is a very healthy balance. I genuinly want both of those things. I don't want to completely be self centered, but I don't want to forget about myself either.
I realize to those reading this, it seems like there are two completely different people writing this. There is the one charitable, hospitable, giving side who wants to help hurrican victims and childrens hospitals. Then there is the other side who wants hair extentions and to live in New York and Boston (which I realize is an odd combo...for you baseball fans out there)
But all of it is true. I want to do so many things and enjoy every single second of every day. I want to have so many things but give an incredible amount at the same time.
But unless I get some sleep sometime soon, it is going to be a lot more difficult to get all of this stuff done =)
So to the rest of the world, Good morning.
As for me, however,
Good night =)