speechless
honestly i think thats where I've gotten at this point. I have my ups and my downs and this week I think I'm back to sinking low and to pitying myself, which I hate. However, 2 heartbreaks in a year is a new record, honestly, who can say that for themselves? I dated two complete douche bags and kept the same pattern with both of them and ended up getting royally FUCKED over by each of them. I sit back and read all the mushy gushy love bullshit that I wrote about Ian and Robbie and I want to throw up. Neither of them should have ever gotten any of my love but both managed to get and break my heart. And now...Ian is engaged...or so he says. Here everyone on livejournal...Ian Tate (world's biggest douchebag) is engaged to his 17 year old girlfriend who he cheated on me with. Now this shouldn't be taken in the wrong context, I don't want that white piece of trash back...either of them...however...to know that someone you gave almost two years of your life to, who you ended friendships over, who you spent over 3000 dollars on, who you gave EVERYTHING TO is now engaged to the girl he UGH it's DISGUSTING! And Robbie...who the fuck knows...why call anymore? "Hey laila, I was just thinking about life and wanted to call and see how things were going"....or perhaps what he should have said was "hey laila my life sucks right now does yours? i know I fucked up royally". Seriously I am livid right now, I am hurt, i am SPEECHLESS. I want to scream, punch something, get back at them for everything those pricks put me through. I am SO over it all...so over everything, I want something new, something right, something real. You both are lying sacks of shit who never deserved my love...but luckily, I still believe that the right MAN is out there for me who will give me all the love back that I give him.
This song is now OFFICIALLY my song.
I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'Cos I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all OK
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again
If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
Never again
[Bridge]
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again
This song is now OFFICIALLY my song.
I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'Cos I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all OK
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again
If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
Never again
[Bridge]
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never
[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you were doing
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again