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i find myself starting to feel like fragments. i've decided that i'm self-destructive when it comes to friendships. maybe i'm so unhappy with who i am i project onto others and things just cease. i've been thinking a lot lately about how much my life ebbs and flows. i can line up all the summers where i have a life filled with going out and enjoying company and the ones where i sit at home contemplating where all the people have gone. and it really sucks to feel that i have such an issue staying connected because, surprise surprise, i don't share the same interests as most people my age. the bar is a bore to me. granted i will drink from time to time, but everytime i do i ponder...would i am doing right now be fun at all if i wasn't drinking? and most of the time the answer is no. oh well, maybe i'll find myself one day soon.
in other news had THE best time down on the cape last week with the boy and his fam. definitely some qt which i totally miss seeing as how we're three hours from each other. it's definitely a comfort knowing that there's someone who appreciates everything about me, even my flaws and insecurity, and doesn't mind taking time to reassure me for an hour about once a week because i'm just retarded sometimes.
and where the hell is twinface? gosh, it's been like eons since we talked last. i'm scared that the distance between us has started to make it's prescence known and things just are not the same, and maybe the rocky end at school effected me more than i realized...
speaking of school: lit review sucks and i still have no place to live.
in other news had THE best time down on the cape last week with the boy and his fam. definitely some qt which i totally miss seeing as how we're three hours from each other. it's definitely a comfort knowing that there's someone who appreciates everything about me, even my flaws and insecurity, and doesn't mind taking time to reassure me for an hour about once a week because i'm just retarded sometimes.
and where the hell is twinface? gosh, it's been like eons since we talked last. i'm scared that the distance between us has started to make it's prescence known and things just are not the same, and maybe the rocky end at school effected me more than i realized...
speaking of school: lit review sucks and i still have no place to live.