a thing of the past
It seems that I can't really find the true love of my life. It's funny how it works since the only time you'll ever find true love is when you're not looking but when you're searching they're no where to be found. I miss being in love, I miss having that sense of security, that sense of happiness, that sense of satisfaction. I miss having butterflies, and weird wrestling matches that used to always end in kisses! I miss everything about being in love because right now i have everything about being in lust! I dont understand where my soul mate is, Where he could be when I desperately need him now! I'm jsut having a nastolgic moment right now the rememorance of everythign with me and jesse and all those good times we had makes me want those good times again but i can't seem to get them with Kyle! I know for sure that I love kyle, but I am not IN love with him. My love for him is platonic! I dont knwo i think i'm just rambeling too much now! I jsut need some happiness in my life, it jsut seems that everythign in this world is out to get me and i can never truly be happy because it's me, ida, i'm not allowed to find true love, be happy, or anything that is good!