distance, time, realization: this is a tvxq post
I've realized that, after hours and hours of thinking about it (both consciously, and not), that being an OT5 is really really hard when it comes to these five.
When watching videos or listening to songs, hearing them introduce themselves as DBSK and smiling at each other, I've come to notice that I tend to forget that what i'm seeing is only half of the story. I make constant attempts at persuading myself that while they're doing these things, they are genuinely happy. Then I think of the lawsuit and the reasons behind it, and I wonder if my thoughts are right or not. I mean, I'm sure they were happy at some point in their lives as five, but apparently it got so hard that they had to end it and break thousands of hearts in the process. It hurts me that we weren't able to do anything about it, but then again, it really wasn't our business in the first place
Because really, all I want to see, all I want to watch, is the people I love and admire being happy.
If they aren't, then there really isn't a point to watching them because why can you be happy when they aren't?
Isn't that a bit unfair?
So now, when I say that "if they were still five right now, they'd be so much happier, Catch Me and Humanoid, Android, Still, all those singles they've released up till now, would be so much better, because they'd be able to do so much more", I feel a pang of guilt because really,
they wouldn't be.
(I would, though.)
I'm happy that they're satisfied right now, but I know they could be happier. I want them to be happy but in a way that works for everyone.
Maybe it'll happen someday.
always keep the faith ♡