Silver and Gain
Ecclessiastes 5: 10He who loves silver will not be satisfied with silver, nor he who loves abundance with gain. This also is vanity (emptiness, falsity, and futility)!
I find myself lately wanting lots of things. Here at my parents house, I've been looking at this magazine that Rachel Ray has called Everyday with Rachel Ray. Great mag. However, it makes me want lots of things. They have this section in there that does a shopping comparison and I can't stop day dreaming about the outfit they displayed. They had these cute shoes from Kohls, a cute top from Old Navy...the outfit was so cute and affordable. I also want to go home and garden and am making a mental list of all the things that I want. Rafe and I have looked into getting bikes together...I really like the idea of a new car....some days I literally wake up day dreaming about the things that I want.
This mental shopping lust has creaped up just recently. Since we've been married, and life has slowed down a bit, I've really been satisfied in my daily reading and just enjoying life with my new husband.
I read this verse this morning in Eccl and it reminded me that all of this desiring has left me feeling empty and just wanting more. My day dreams have been less godly and more selfish. Sooo... I need to start refocusing on God and being grateful and less focused on all that I want.
Also..Im' going to start the Atkins diet when I get home. I didn't realize...but Ive actually gained almost 15 lbs. I'm not even sure exactly what my weight was before. I wavered between 113 and 116 all the time. Ive been wanting to weight about 120 and my gma's scale said I weight just that. Yet, I don't fit into any of my clothes that I had a year ago....I started to wonder if I just wore my clothes extremely tight. I'm trying to obtain a more modest wardrobe ..maybe I didn't realize how tight I used to wear my clothes? When I went to the docs not too long ago they said I was 127...no way I thought. Their scale is off..Ive gained weight but not that much....but here at my parents their bathroom scale said 128...I told Rafe it was broke...it must be off..it said he weighed more than he thought he did too. But then I found another scale in my parents bathroom that said the same thing!! What are the chances that three scales are wrong? lol. I'd be in some serious denial if I thought they were. I had a small epiphany last night. No wonder my clothes don't fit anymore! lol.
So I'd like to loose about 10 lbs. I don't want to go completely down to 116 again. Maybe 119...I know that 1 or 2 lbs may not seeem to be much of a difference to some people. But it is to my small frame. We're looking to have kids in a little more than a year. I'd like to get back into shape before having kids. Sounds silly..but I dont want to have to loose 30 lbs of prego weight on top of 15 lbs of lazy Jessica weight.
ok....hubby and I are going for a walk. :)
I find myself lately wanting lots of things. Here at my parents house, I've been looking at this magazine that Rachel Ray has called Everyday with Rachel Ray. Great mag. However, it makes me want lots of things. They have this section in there that does a shopping comparison and I can't stop day dreaming about the outfit they displayed. They had these cute shoes from Kohls, a cute top from Old Navy...the outfit was so cute and affordable. I also want to go home and garden and am making a mental list of all the things that I want. Rafe and I have looked into getting bikes together...I really like the idea of a new car....some days I literally wake up day dreaming about the things that I want.
This mental shopping lust has creaped up just recently. Since we've been married, and life has slowed down a bit, I've really been satisfied in my daily reading and just enjoying life with my new husband.
I read this verse this morning in Eccl and it reminded me that all of this desiring has left me feeling empty and just wanting more. My day dreams have been less godly and more selfish. Sooo... I need to start refocusing on God and being grateful and less focused on all that I want.
Also..Im' going to start the Atkins diet when I get home. I didn't realize...but Ive actually gained almost 15 lbs. I'm not even sure exactly what my weight was before. I wavered between 113 and 116 all the time. Ive been wanting to weight about 120 and my gma's scale said I weight just that. Yet, I don't fit into any of my clothes that I had a year ago....I started to wonder if I just wore my clothes extremely tight. I'm trying to obtain a more modest wardrobe ..maybe I didn't realize how tight I used to wear my clothes? When I went to the docs not too long ago they said I was 127...no way I thought. Their scale is off..Ive gained weight but not that much....but here at my parents their bathroom scale said 128...I told Rafe it was broke...it must be off..it said he weighed more than he thought he did too. But then I found another scale in my parents bathroom that said the same thing!! What are the chances that three scales are wrong? lol. I'd be in some serious denial if I thought they were. I had a small epiphany last night. No wonder my clothes don't fit anymore! lol.
So I'd like to loose about 10 lbs. I don't want to go completely down to 116 again. Maybe 119...I know that 1 or 2 lbs may not seeem to be much of a difference to some people. But it is to my small frame. We're looking to have kids in a little more than a year. I'd like to get back into shape before having kids. Sounds silly..but I dont want to have to loose 30 lbs of prego weight on top of 15 lbs of lazy Jessica weight.
ok....hubby and I are going for a walk. :)