It will never be the same..
Well thanksgiving started out good, even at 1:00 am. but like 11 hours later.. things just got to me. It has almost been a year since my uncle went to jail, and i can honestly say he was the only person i could tell everything to. He was my best friend.. And now, he is gone. i feel so alone. I don't even feel right with my own family, it's like something is missing. He called today and asked to talk to me first, not my grandmother or grandfather but me. I wanted to cry, but i know i can't because it will make things worse for him, and i don't wanna do that.. i just miss him so much, and no one knows how this feels. it is like he died but then he calls and it's like teasing me. i don't know how to explain it. i can't even say anything to my family about it either cause they would just tell me he will be out soon and all that, but i need him now, not in 9 years. I lost my uncle in the most improtant point of my life, going from a child to an adult, and he won't be there for any of it.. i have 2 more years till i can even see him. i can't wait till i am 18. And that is on the top of my list. My 18th birthday i am going to see him! i apologize for probably boring you, and if this doesn't make any sense what so ever, but i had to get it out, and this was the easiest. **why does everything have to be soo hard..?